Returning to school...

Will be a nightmare. I just know it.

I graduated high school in 2009 and haven't done anything academically since...but I do want to go to school and study Film and Screenwriting. I have nothing else going for me and maybe going back to school will help me with my SAD. However, even a single thought of returning to school, especially after I performed poorly in high school, makes me burn with anxiety. I don't have a car or drive either so unless I move to a new city that is walkable I'm **** out of luck.

Any advice is welcome...thank you.

Social_Monstrosity said:

Will be a nightmare. I just know it.

I graduated high school in 2009 and haven't done anything academically since...but I do want to go to school and study Film and Screenwriting. I have nothing else going for me and maybe going back to school will help me with my SAD. However, even a single thought of returning to school, especially after I performed poorly in high school, makes me burn with anxiety. I don't have a car or drive either so unless I move to a new city that is walkable I'm **** out of luck.

Any advice is welcome...thank you.

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I'm at the same situation, I will return in 2011 to University, with the aggravant that I'm 25 years old...
I will try to drown in anxiety until the point I won't care anymore. I don't have anything to lose anyway, my life is already destroyed.

Does anyone know of any majors where I could get a job where I don't have to be around people very much?

I'm actually looking forward to it, i was kinda depressed when last semester ended, I can't wait to see my friends again

JamesSmith said:

Does anyone know of any majors where I could get a job where I don't have to be around people very much?

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Info Systems? I only took one computer class though. There was a good amount of space per person. So possibly. There wasn't any presentations just the greeting at the beginning and that was it.. it was so great.

When I first started University, I felt exactly as you did.. I moved away to study... And gah it was very stressful... I remember crying in the first week wanting to go home... But after 2 months I finally settled in... I'm the type of person who doesn't give up easily though... So everyday I tried to get myself out there and try to fit in... Faced my fears, when things failed, I kept trying, if I never did it, I wouldn't have overcome my anxiety. So really you won't know until you face it and try. If this is what you really want, then go for it.

major in fine art

take life drawing classes

you get to stare at naked girls all day

seriously - that's what i did

I spent a year at a university. There were good things and bad things, but the bad thing was I failed to make enough friends to hang out with during free time, and my best friend at the school bailed on me to be with his g/f all day every day. I passed most classes and finished freshman year and didn't go back. I felt so lonely when i was there. I hated sitting alone in my room on weekends while everyone else was living it up. I tried going out a few times and it was so weird and uncomfortable. I didn't know what to say to people and I was always the outcast. I was so scared that I would pretend like I was asleep in the middle of a party. I don't know if I'll ever fit in with peers and be able to communicate normally. The first months there I attempted to go out again and again and just realized that I was torturing myself most of the time. I wanted to be normal so bad, but it wasn't working out. Story of my life.