Hi all,
I'm currently living in Australia and I've recently realized that the way I act and feel at certains times, for all my life, are symtoms of S.A.D so I decided to look more into it, self diagnosed myself and found this forum.
Apart from having SA I have physical/appearance issues too which makes me even more abnormal. It also limits my chances of being in a relationship even more.
But even though I have SA I constantly push myself to interact with people and make friends. I have managed to make some friends in the past and have met a lot of great people but I just can't seem to keep the friendship or even have a truly close friend which is such a pity.
I always have an urge to be normal so I psych myself up to be confident and it might last for abit but I fizzle out eventually XD. If someone talks to me I will talk back and try to not appear uncomfortable. Sometimes I succeed and feel proud of myself but sometimes I just fail and sense that they know I feel uncomfortable. So I probably come across intimidating to talk to even though I'm considered to be nice.
I also find it weird that for a rational person I could be so irrational haha.
Anyways, ill leave it here and thanx for reading