Recent content by SilentAndShy

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    How are you feeling?

    It's our religious celebration and I've taken extended time off from work and I'm already wishing I could be in the office than home. Too many people to deal with, plenty of anxiety, on top of existing worries.
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    How are you feeling?

    I've started some counselling over the last month and we discuss meditational techniques (deep breathing) and religious words in moments of anxiety or situations I'm about to go into. I still feel day to day that I have ups and downs and the latter have been dark for my family. But I...
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    Post your random thoughts/feelings etc

    In two separate meetings at work, I feel I've been picked out by a Trustee to contribute. Why? I think it's because I'm too quiet (which I am) and he expects me, in my role, to be dominating the proceedings. Yesterday, he pointedly said to me: "How are you going to help?" During a meeting to...
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    Finally I've asked for help

    So after many years of struggle and at the age of 35 and with no direction as to how I can try and reverse this regular doom and gloom that envelops me, I thought I'm going to seek help from a counsellor who can understand my religious, ethnic and cultural background and may be help me for the...
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    How are you feeling?

    I'm not sure if walks in this situation is a negative but it reminded me of a long walk I took yesterday to the dentists. I could have taken my car, been home in around 30 minutes. But the way I've been feeling (so physically and mentally exhausted) I thought the driving of a car gives me...
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    How are you feeling?

    I felt slightly better meeting his children yesterday who seemed so at peace with it all that it put my thoughts in perspective and the right context. Maybe next time I'd try to do something but with my driving anxiety, probably not. I have to add to this that I spoke to my manager today to say...
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    How are you feeling?

    I'm feeling incredibly low. I've got driving anxiety so when I drive, I have a tunnel vision focus on what I'm doing but unfortunately on Friday, it came at a devastating cost. On a return journey home, I noticed two cars parked up. The weird thing about it was the first car was parked at angle...
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    How are you feeling?

    Hopefully this place will be more supportive than other forums who would say "you should be sacked or disciplined!") But yes, I did invent a fake Covid-19 test to avoid going into work for this work lunch and this event. I just didn't feel an improvement in my mind to meet people and thinking...
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    Relationships Ease Anxiety?

    Congratulations on the job. It can be a good thing if you have a work colleague or friend who you can talk to about your work but also more importantly, about any anxiety. I had a very good work friend in my last job, however I never was able to share my deepest anxiety issues with her as...
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    How are you feeling?

    I wish the ground would swallow me up and make disappear from this world. Work, home, family - everything is overwhelming me. It's so hard as I can't see what small step I could take to help situations. I've signed up for counselling support, paying for it that I'm awaiting but who knows what...
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    How are you feeling?

    I'm supposed to have worked for 7.5 hours today. I've probably worked for a few hours. Rest of the time I've been sat aimlessly at my laptop feeling overwhelmed by the tasks I've got to do; feeling incapable of doing them; sat browsing unnecessarily on Twitter; just doing anything but work. And...
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    How are you feeling?

    At work, I'm feeling so conscious of what other people may think about me. It could be if I've not done a task, or if I haven't contributed in a meeting that I should have. Latter happened today when there was a big meeting and I felt aware that people (Trustees, my manager, colleagues) may be...
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    Gym etiquette

    I've said it for many years going as far back as my 20s that I want to join a gym and "tone up". Unsurprisingly that hasn't happened. Now I'm slightly overweight and at 35, I want to improve my physical health, my diet and hopefully it helps with my mental health. There is a leisure centre...
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    Post your random thoughts/feelings etc

    It's something I struggle with, building up anxiety before it and not delivering on a fluent phone call. At work, I do procrastination for a little while until I realise I have to do this soon. I try to do it first thing to get it out of the way then I try to time it so I'm either alone or less...
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    Post your random thoughts/feelings etc

    I'm such a work fraud. Wonder when the penny will drop "oh erm, this guy isn't what we thought he was"
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