Recent content by ooSOULCRYoo

Often times I think about becoming a buddhist monk. :lol: Maybe then I will find peace and happiness. I don't know... just a silly thought. I know that its not easy to become one.

I have never felt so alone than I do now. I mean.. growing up I always had friends and didn't really have a hard time fitting in until now, at age 24 I have no friends. The older I get I feel like Im becoming more and more alienated. I don't want to be stereotipical but seems like everyone fits...

yeah... whenever I drive my car Im afraid to turn the volume up. I feel like people are going to look at me or judge me. When I was in highshcool, I would always bump the music but now Im too self concious. and when Im at a stoplight, Im afraid to look at the person in the car next to mine...

Clingy, needy, jealous, obsessive, and bitchy is what I am. all these emotions that are raging inside. I can't help it.. I tried to change but I can't. How can I not be needy? How can I not get jealous? The only way I'll ever find true love, is if I change... I will never change, I will never...

Hello guys! Every so often I would have nightmares of stabbing poeple. I mean, I'm not a violent type of person and knives freakin scare me. Does neone know what this type of dream means? thanks~

What it feels like to be SP free? I always daydream about it. Gawd~~!! I just want to break out!!

Hello. Im 24 yrs old and a college drop out. I feel ashamed to meet new ppl bcause I didn't finish college. For those of you who graduated college, do you look down on ppl that didn't go to college?

Does fate exist? Do you believe in fate ? Do you think that everything in life is predetermine ?

Dont you guys hate it when you go into a store or wherever and its super bright? I think its called fluorescent lights. You can see every little imperfections that you have. I quit my office job because I felt so self-conscious all the time. I wish flourescent lights were illegal!! By the way...

Does anyone watch MTV The Hills? I wish I had a life like them~~ *sigh* :cry:

Hi guys! Im so glad I found this forum. I have been feeling very suicidal lately and after reading your post I feel like Im not alone. Does anyone live at home with parents? If so, are they understanding of your disorder? My mom would often tell me to get a job which makes me really depressed...