Recent content by Luthien

I've never owned a tv and had no interest in watching it until I got SA. Then I would download or stream as much as I could. I had to have something on at all times. I was so terrified of being alone and quiet with my own thoughts that I even had to listen to something when I went to sleep at...

I've never actually talked to another person who's had a panic attack. From what I've read about them, I don't think I actually HAVE them, but my doctors and my therapist assure me that I do. When I have a "panic attack" I start to shake. My whole body convulses, sometimes violently, and I...

Sometimes I feel like the only reason I joined this forum was an attempt to feel heard and appreciated. I feel so different, so off from the rest of the world... It's sort of lonely. I have people that I love, but for some reason it's never enough! My self esteem is so wrapped up in what other...

Hey all, I thought it might be fun to post videos to make everyone laugh. I've found soooo many hilarious videos on youtube over the past year (I didn't have a computer before then... HOW DID I LIVE???) anyway, here's one to start it off: YouTube - kitty cat I don't know why, but this never...

Hi all. I've been house bound for more than a year now. I live in a pretty small town full of super nice people, but I'm terrified to go out. One of the reasons is that even though I don't know a lot people here, they're all SO nice, I know they would talk to me. People always talk to me, I'm an...

Hey everyone. I only started having social phobia and anxiety a little over a year ago and it's been super intense. I am really extreme and don't leave my house unless it's to see a doctor or something like that. Since this started, my boyfriend and my sister (who live with me and are incredibly...

Hi, all. I'm totally new to this forum and really any forum on social phobia. I'm actually really new to my own social phobia, too. A little more than a year ago, I sort of had a breakdown and now I don't leave my house. In retrospect, I can see that it was a long time coming. I think that I'm...