I would like your opinion about this

I want to share what happened to me because I can't keep it inside of me anymore. First, I want to apologize if you can't understand me but English is my second language.

Last Friday I went to a kid's camp with my boyfriend to help his friend who is the monitor in taking care of the children. I wanted to go because I thought it would be a good way to overcome my problems and at the end it was a very good experience. However when we came back my boyfriend wanted to hang out but I was so exhausted that I went home. He got really mad at me because of this.

Yesterday I had to go to a family lunch and the next Wednesday I'll have my first visit with the psychologist so I haven't been sleeping well because of the anxiety and worry that this causes me. The night before going to the camp I didn't sleep at all because of nerves. My boyfriend can't understand that being 8 hours dealing with kids makes me so tired that I only want to go home instead of hanging out with him.

Today I called him trying to fix this and it went worse. He told me that he didn't want to take the call which it hurt me very much because I would never do that to him. I would never ignore him like that. He said to me too that even when he's ill or tired he always hangs out with me. It sounded like I force him to go out or that I always say no to him which is false because I've only refused to go out like 3 or 4 times in the 2 years we've been together. Now I'm waiting for him to call because we agreed that when he doesn't feel angry anymore he'll talk to me and the worst thing is that he said that maybe he wouldn't call.

I feel so alone, confused, upset... Thank you very much for reading this and it would mean very much to me if you share your thoughts of this matter because I would like to hear an outside opinion.

Well, on the one hand, if you are too emotional, saying that you don't want to talk about is a good idea. Then you can talk when you are a bit calmer and don't risk saying anything you regret later on.

Then I think that it's always better to discuss such things in person than on the phone. With gestures and mimics there are less misunderstandings.

Then of course, according to what you wrote, he shouldn't be angry for you because of that. I don't know why he got angry. On the other hand, I do neither know you nor him, so I don't know what happened. Maybe he misinterpreted things you said or how you acted, and assumed you were flirty or wanted sex later on or something, and then he was disappointed when you just wanted to go home? Or there was some other misunderstanding?

I don't know. Only he knows.

Sounds to me like he could be more patient and understanding towards you.

Thank you very much for your answers.

Maybe when he gets calmer, you should tell him about your social anxiety, your appointment with the psychologist and how social situations drain your energy and explain to him that your situation is more than just a simple tiredness?... I have a friend who's studying in Spain right now, and she tells me that the people there are very warm blooded, social and friendly, so my guess is that social anxiety might be maybe considered a bit more weird for people where you live.