medepressed
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Hi Everyone. Joined the site for a quite long time, I guess. Had old id. but I wont mention it. Somehow was banned. now sure, if it was my fault or some misunderstood me.
anyways. I am facing social anxiety and depression for a quite long time with a bit of OCD. today, my roommates, asked me to leave the room on 10 days notice. It just jolted me. I never been rude to them. Just been confined to myself. that they dint understood, as usual. We people dont feel fit in between other people, more we try we feel awkward.
anyways. todays, was the day, that broke me heart. I stayed calm and behaved like its ok. But from inside it broke my all confidence. I am drinking and still on medication(I know, not good for a person with depression and anxiety). but cant help. It feels like, no one understands me. My parents dont know about my situations. Now I feel so much pressure to find a new room to live. I work as a software engineer that I suck on. I just try to work for few hours and get scold everyday, because being late and not being a good employee. I just thought to write my first post to share my thoughts and to know how others feel about my situation. want to know, if anyone feels that way. I love someone but even she dint understands me. Its so lonely. I am cutting myself. I dont know what to do. How to face people next day, who told me to leave. I dont know how to continue. like this. Feels like, noone understands me and will never understand me.
anyways. I am facing social anxiety and depression for a quite long time with a bit of OCD. today, my roommates, asked me to leave the room on 10 days notice. It just jolted me. I never been rude to them. Just been confined to myself. that they dint understood, as usual. We people dont feel fit in between other people, more we try we feel awkward.
anyways. todays, was the day, that broke me heart. I stayed calm and behaved like its ok. But from inside it broke my all confidence. I am drinking and still on medication(I know, not good for a person with depression and anxiety). but cant help. It feels like, no one understands me. My parents dont know about my situations. Now I feel so much pressure to find a new room to live. I work as a software engineer that I suck on. I just try to work for few hours and get scold everyday, because being late and not being a good employee. I just thought to write my first post to share my thoughts and to know how others feel about my situation. want to know, if anyone feels that way. I love someone but even she dint understands me. Its so lonely. I am cutting myself. I dont know what to do. How to face people next day, who told me to leave. I dont know how to continue. like this. Feels like, noone understands me and will never understand me.