I am alone when I'm by myself. But not as alone when with others. Social anxiety disorder is a slow cruel death. I try to stay positive but I'm just lieing to myself. I have to whatch video's of places like North Korea so I can try to feel lucky for what I have. But I just feel worse for those people suffering and angery there are such evil greedy people outthere. I finely was able to tell my doctor I have s.a.d. But I don't think he understands the severity I suffer from it. He was obligated to ask if I was suicidel. I told no like he was crazy for asking but the truth is I think about it every day and have for as long as I can remember. Its weird because I think about it at times you would not think someone would about it. Like when having fun. I guess I haven't done it because I don't know if there is a afterlife or not but if there is it might be worse than this life. I hope no body else knows what I mean because then you know how it feels.
Last edited: