Punishing myself for a lot of things

[FriendlyShadow]

I feel that I have done no good in this world. No matter what people tell me all I do is take it the other way around by simply dwell myself in punishment after punishment. I can't stop it. I've physcoligically harmed by most, yet they will never understand my problems or my life. There's nothing anybody can do about it. I'm not attractive, I'm boring, helpless, stupid, and a mess. Emotions keep crashing over me like waves of the beach. I don't know if I want anybody's help or not and I don't know if I want to get into a relationship since I'm considerably unstable at that. No matter if people are going to tell me differently it still isn't going to change a thing. My thoughts will still remain what they are about myself and about everything else. If anyone feels the same the way I do, feel free to post it on here in this thread. That's all I had to say for now:sad:

 

[surewhynot]

You seem to have self esteem issues. Have you considered doing volunteering? It could help make you feel better about yourself, and the rest will surely follow

 

[FriendlyShadow]

Yeah I did realize I had them, but then again of how people treated me I'm not sure there's a way to gain it back. I can't grow my self esteem back, I might as well just find someone who is the same as that way. People just don't understand.

 

[FriendlyShadow]

My first thoughts were volunteering at a day care to help old people, but then again I'm not sure because I would have to communicate with them all day. I wonder if there is a much solitude place where there is fewer people I could converse with.

 

[surewhynot]

Do you like puppies? Go walk some cute dogs at the dog shelter!

 

[Odo]

Helping a wounded animal is one of the most rewarding things I've ever experienced... it makes you a better person because you're in a position of total responsibility over their well-being, so you end up having to find the strength in yourself to deal with everything. Animals are even better than people because they don't make things too complicated and will always love you as long as you treat them right.

If you really want to do some good I would definitely look into helping animals in some way.

 

[Diend]

It is tough to find people who care and it is why this forum exists. You need to try to pinpoint why you are feeling this way and you can start by looking for something in your life that needs to be fulfilled...like the social group you've always wanted but that has slipped from your grasp all the time due to shyness and past experiences.

 

[FriendlyShadow]

It is tough to find people who care and it is why this forum exists. You need to try to pinpoint why you are feeling this way and you can start by looking for something in your life that needs to be fulfilled...like the social group you've always wanted but that has slipped from your grasp all the time due to shyness and past experiences.

The only reason I can't talk to people(apart from having dyspraxia) is because of their bossiness and because of how they treated towards me. My family isn't doing that well of a job supporting me only to make things worse by thinking I need to change for everyone after all that. Everyone tries to change me because I'm not how they expected I should be. I really do hate being human.

 

[FriendlyShadow]

Helping a wounded animal is one of the most rewarding things I've ever experienced... it makes you a better person because you're in a position of total responsibility over their well-being, so you end up having to find the strength in yourself to deal with everything. Animals are even better than people because they don't make things too complicated and will always love you as long as you treat them right.


Yeah, I'll think about doing that. I've always thought animals made better companions in the first place. I just wish they have lived as long as human's life span has.

 

[surewhynot]

Yeah, I'll think about doing that. I've always thought animals made better companions in the first place. I just wish they have lived as long as human's life span has.

'People are born so that they can learn how to live a good Life -- like loving everybody all the time and being nice, right?' The Six-year-old continued, 'Well, dogs already know how to do that, so they don't have to stay as long.'