Epiphanies

[lilmutegirl]

I had one today, but I forgot it...I remember thinking I would post it on here, but since I was driving when I thought of it, I wasn't able to at that time. I'll post it when I remember. ::
What epiphanies have you had?

 

[lilmutegirl]

I just remembered while pouring ketchup (totally unrelated)! I realized today that since I am so dependent on other people, I feel like I can't stand up to them. That's probably why I stayed in abusive relationships for so long and why I don't confront my parents about my issues with them. It's like I feel they will punish me by not supporting me (financially, emotionally, by helping with babysitting my son, etc.) if I speak my mind.

 

[MikeyC]

About 10 years ago, I had an epiphany that I was not good with kids after my friend at the time told me off about making fun of his nephew. I wasn't really doing that, but then I realised I should've just kept my mouth shut. From that moment on I knew I was not good with children and I'm still childless.

In 2010 I had an epiphany that I shouldn't drink anymore, too, after getting far too drunk at a party. I have drank since then but never to that extent. That was bad.

 

[lilmutegirl]

I realized something about myself in large groups today. I've always been awkward when I'm around several people, even if I'm okay with each individual one-on-one.
My family (parents, brother and his wife and kids, my boyfriend and my son) went out for breakfast this morning for my birthday (it's on Tuesday). I focused mostly on my mom and infant niece, whom I was holding, and had trouble paying attention to anyone else. I often try to plan outings with friends around my son's schedule so I don't have to take him, because he'll drain my attention.
I wonder if I have some attention deficit that is exacerbated by large groups, which contributes to my anxiety. Often, when I'm with a group having two conversations (like, 3 talking about one subject, 3 talking about something else), I sit and alternate my attention between the two groups without immersing myself in or contributing to either.

 

[ImNotMyIllness]

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[lilmutegirl]

I've always known that I was a very disorganized person (my parents are hoarders, and I grew up in a chaotic household, so I never learned to organize and prioritize things). I have decided that if I can get (at least somewhat) organized, and not have so much stress in my life, I'll probably be less anxious, since I'll feel more prepared and not caught off guard by...everything.
Before the summer semester of school starts, I hope to clean my house, and get rid of a bunch of superfluous stuff, as well as separate all my class stuff so I don't get flustered.

 

[ImNotMyIllness]

I've always known that I was a very disorganized person (my parents are hoarders, and I grew up in a chaotic household, so I never learned to organize and prioritize things). I have decided that if I can get (at least somewhat) organized, and not have so much stress in my life, I'll probably be less anxious, since I'll feel more prepared and not caught off guard by...everything.
Before the summer semester of school starts, I hope to clean my house, and get rid of a bunch of superfluous stuff, as well as separate all my class stuff so I don't get flustered.

I have this problem too! But now, I'm a lot more organized. I separate bills using folders and sheet protectors. That way, I know where everything is.

...But, it's an ongoing battle for me. If I get even a little lazy, things can quickly get out of control and I'm back to being disorganized. Overall, I'm doing much better, which reminds me, time to put the papers back that I took out.

 

[vj288]

I have mini "Epiphanies" all the time it feels like, but usually it's while I'm walking or at school or work - where I can't write any of it down or think more deeply about it. I put epiphany in quotes because a lot of times it's just a thought that crosses my mind that feels like a realization, but usually A) I've had the same train of thought before, just forgot about it and B) a lot of times I'll think more about it and realize it's not really the case, or it contradicts another of my "epiphanies." Maybe it's more like pre-epiphany introspection. I have it all the time though, I'm constantly trying to figure out things about myself, especially when there's things about me I need to change. I need to understand things before I can change them (or decide if change is needed), even even in myself.