cowboyup
Well-known member
Venting again....sorry in advance.
I feel like crying right now. Just throwing my hands in the air and F*** it all.
I feel like giving up.
My sister in law and brother were talking and she signed up for 2 classes at the community center plus 2 classes for my nephew. All on different days.
Why I am angry is because she did not say anything to me about it and why do I care you ask? Well, because this means that I will have to put in extra - double- over time with watching my nephew (when he doesn't have classes) and my soon to be born niece. Why the hell can't somebody just tell me these things in advance? I DO NOT get paid extra for watching the kids over my 5 am - 4 pm time/M-F (and sometimes on weekends)
I am so pissed just writing this now. I know it may not seem like a big deal but I am so F'ing stuck - I have college classes that I MUST attend and MUST get good grades so that I can move onto university to get financial aid/a stable job and I NEED to concentrate on the classes.
Then today, they were gone to move my sister in law into her new classroom for the new school year (she's an elementary school counselor) and they were gone for almost 5 hours. I asked them how the move went and she said the school was closed so they just ran errands all day. Then said, "so can you help me move furniture and boxes into the classroom tomorrow" Sure no problem. I'll watch your kid while I move your furniture -- and you can just sit on your A** and watch me. <--I sure wish I had guts to say that!
For the love of God, I am just making their life so easy. They have a live in maid, live in child care, live in cook, and they know that I have SA so it feels like they automatically think, "oh she has nothing planned so she will be free to watch the kids at moments notice."
Honestly, I don't mind helping out, but the longer I stay here, the more I feel I am being taken advantage of. And I can't even apply for some stinking menial job part time because I don't even have time to apply for work! How damn messed up is that?
I feel like crying right now. Just throwing my hands in the air and F*** it all.
I feel like giving up.
My sister in law and brother were talking and she signed up for 2 classes at the community center plus 2 classes for my nephew. All on different days.
Why I am angry is because she did not say anything to me about it and why do I care you ask? Well, because this means that I will have to put in extra - double- over time with watching my nephew (when he doesn't have classes) and my soon to be born niece. Why the hell can't somebody just tell me these things in advance? I DO NOT get paid extra for watching the kids over my 5 am - 4 pm time/M-F (and sometimes on weekends)
I am so pissed just writing this now. I know it may not seem like a big deal but I am so F'ing stuck - I have college classes that I MUST attend and MUST get good grades so that I can move onto university to get financial aid/a stable job and I NEED to concentrate on the classes.
Then today, they were gone to move my sister in law into her new classroom for the new school year (she's an elementary school counselor) and they were gone for almost 5 hours. I asked them how the move went and she said the school was closed so they just ran errands all day. Then said, "so can you help me move furniture and boxes into the classroom tomorrow" Sure no problem. I'll watch your kid while I move your furniture -- and you can just sit on your A** and watch me. <--I sure wish I had guts to say that!
For the love of God, I am just making their life so easy. They have a live in maid, live in child care, live in cook, and they know that I have SA so it feels like they automatically think, "oh she has nothing planned so she will be free to watch the kids at moments notice."
Honestly, I don't mind helping out, but the longer I stay here, the more I feel I am being taken advantage of. And I can't even apply for some stinking menial job part time because I don't even have time to apply for work! How damn messed up is that?
