Rainbow7
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Since my early teen years, My family && even some friends have been making fun of my eating habits. I would normally just brush it off or laugh with them pretending it doesn't bother me, but pretty soon it started to more && more. It's been happening a lot more recently from my family. They say things like "You use to be so much smaller than you are now, you should do some sit ups" Or "Omg that is wayy to much food on your plate". Theirs a billion more but it hurts to just type it. I noticed that I began to only eat when no one was around to just barely eating. I'm deathly afraid to talk to someone professionally about it because I'm scared they'll say I developed some kind of eating disorder. I already have enough baggage, I feel like adding that on would make me a burden. My parents are constantly blaming me for things I can't help, so I feel adding that on would make things 10 times worse. To be honest, I only weigh about 130 pounds && My boyfriend says I'm fine just the way I am, so I don't know why it hurts me so bad when people say these things. It's like every time I eat or while I'm preparing my meal, I hear these mean voices in my head of exactly what my family and friends tell me about my eating. It sometimes overwhelms me and I can barely eat without shaking. What do you think? Has anyone else ever went through this before?