Anxiety Cycle

[Beatrice]

How to explain what I want to say...

I stay in my room a lot currently because I think I'm a bit depressed. I also have almost no energy lately (I think that may have to do with not having my thyroid meds though.... I don't knowwwwww ugh). I also stay in my room because of my anxiety, which is the main reason why I do so; I don't feel comfortable around the people I live with.

The thing is.... staying in my room makes the people I live with suspicious and angry. And it makes me feel guilty because I'm not interacting. But again, that horrible anxiety. So it's like this: I don't want to be around them because of my anxiety, but not being around them makes my anxiety bad too, just not in the same way.

They don't seem to understand depression and anxiety at all. I once told one of them that I had social anxiety. He had never heard of it and he asked what it was. I told him and he said, "Oh, you think you have that huh" :/

So anyway, what I'm trying to get at is.... well I don't really know. Haha. I guess I'm just putting it out there. And however anyone wants to respond is fine. I'm distressed by my lack of being able to make them understand due to anxiety, and yet I sit in my room because of this anxiety and they judge me, not knowing why *sigh*

Sorry, I wish I could have explained that more clearly

 

[pebblesdundee]

I wish i could help, luckily most of my family has been understanding, apart from my dad who was an ignorant f***, but eh, i got over it. I'm not saying you should, I'm trying to say that right now it might seem like no one understands, you're just unlucky with the people you're around atm, pretty soon you'll be around people who understnad.


And yes, i hate what a cycle socail anxiety is. I'm scared to go out, so i stay in. I stay in which makes me more scared. i'm more scared so i stay indoors, etc, etc

 

[kc1980]

Sorry to hear about these problems you're having. Just about one point of your post, I was wondering why you don't have your thyroid medicine anymore (sorry if you already explained that somewhere else). I don't take them myself, but I've heard from people who know that they can make a difference (both for people with an overactive or not active enough one) for mood and overall well-being, like you seem to suggest yourself. Could you still take them, or is there a good reason why you don't?

 

[Beatrice]

Sorry to hear about these problems you're having. Just about one point of your post, I was wondering why you don't have your thyroid medicine anymore (sorry if you already explained that somewhere else). I don't take them myself, but I've heard from people who know that they can make a difference (both for people with an overactive or not active enough one) for mood and overall well-being, like you seem to suggest yourself. Could you still take them, or is there a good reason why you don't?

I don't have insurance any more. I'm waiting to hear back from them but until then I'm out of luck :/ Thanks for asking.

 

[Pacific_Loner]

Maybe your body works differently than mine, but for me, staying home in front of the computer all day is litterally asking to be depressed.
As you describe, it creates a vicious circle - after a day spent alone in front of the pc, I feel tired, depressed, with no energy, sometimes with a headache, and I am more anti-social than ever because my brain turned to jello.
I remember you talking about living with roomates and being banned from your room because you were there all the time, and you said that it helped.
Why don't you force yourself out of your room?
You don't have to stay in the house, you can find activities to do outside, this way you're not stuck with the people there, but you're not being depressed alone in your room either, and you won't be anxious about making them upset because you're always in your room anymore, and it will provide you some things to talk about when you come back (even if it's just 2 sentences, it's still communication)