Dose anyone else feel like...

Sure_whynot

Sure_whynot

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... they are living with their hands tied behind their backs, and life is kicking their ass?


I feel like I am expected to live by the same expectations as everyone else. I'm not the same as everyone else, even though at first glance I may appear to be. My secret is my sweating, and its curse is that, by hiding it, every day I loose a little more of myself. I loose the drive to succeed, the want to live every day to its fullest, the need to keep pushing though, and the desire to admire the beautiful things in this world.

Each time I get knocked down, I get back up a little more slowly.
Wondering, what if I just stayed down?

I wonder, what kind of weak F**k lets HH run their life like me?
Im weak, and I deserve this. Its my own fault, im pathetic.

I wonder, what could I have possibly done to deserve this? Why has God forgotten me?! Is there even a God? because after 8 years... I just feel like I am talking to myself.

I feel run-down at the age of 18. My happy childhood, sweat-free, memories feel like they were those of a different person. & The goals I once had have been replaced with the dreams of remembering those goals.

My world's losing its color, and all my dreams & desires are turning to ash.

I act like an arrogant asshole to cover up how scared & unsure of myself I am. & I hate myself for that. Its just, I've been acting like that for so long I dont know how to change back anymore.

I have very severe Hyperhidrosis, and I will always be watching the world though my window.

Sorry for being so weak, its taking me a long time to stand back up this time.
x Sure
 
BiGz

BiGz

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^^^ WTF does that and the bombers have anything to do with this thread rofl.
 
BiGz

BiGz

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Sure_whynot said:
... they are living with their hands tied behind their backs, and life is kicking their ass?


I feel like I am expected to live by the same expectations as everyone else. I'm not the same as everyone else, even though at first glance I may appear to be. My secret is my sweating, and its curse is that, by hiding it, every day I loose a little more of myself. I loose the drive to succeed, the want to live every day to its fullest, the need to keep pushing though, and the desire to admire the beautiful things in this world.

Each time I get knocked down, I get back up a little more slowly.
Wondering, what if I just stayed down?

I wonder, what kind of weak F**k lets HH run their life like me?
Im weak, and I deserve this. Its my own fault, im pathetic.

I wonder, what could I have possibly done to deserve this? Why has God forgotten me?! Is there even a God? because after 8 years... I just feel like I am talking to myself.

I feel run-down at the age of 18. My happy childhood, sweat-free, memories feel like they were those of a different person. & The goals I once had have been replaced with the dreams of remembering those goals.

My world's losing its color, and all my dreams & desires are turning to ash.

I act like an arrogant asshole to cover up how scared & unsure of myself I am. & I hate myself for that. Its just, I've been acting like that for so long I dont know how to change back anymore.

I have very severe Hyperhidrosis, and I will always be watching the world though my window.

Sorry for being so weak, its taking me a long time to stand back up this time.
x Sure
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Mate no need to feel sorry, I'm going through the exact same as you as I'm sure everyone else with HH is. In actual fact the past 2 months have been really bad. I went into what I can only describe as a depression. I've felt bad before but not this bad and the recovery took way longer than previous occasions.

As you say since we look fine everyone assumes you are and than the high expectations come with that and no one gets why we don't do this or that etc. When one of your best mates is in the top 1% of students in one of the best uni's and the rest of your mates have high end careers and you yourself are stuck in limbo as it were it really does suck hard.

As far as the way I act sometimes I can be a asshole around my parents but usually I live by the "treat others how you would have them treat you" and it helps make you feel better in some ways, just being friendly even when you don't feel like it.

I believe in God and I guess one of the biggest things that helps me is knowing why things are the way they are but I'm not going to go into all that (here anyway)

As a side note I know of this girl who I believe now must have a odor issue and its really bad. I have to admit I'm surprised at how popular she seems to be considering the problem, having spoken to one of my friends who knows her he always comments on what a nice person she is. So I can only assume that it must be such a outstanding quality for people to not judge her harshly. It makes me think that in comparison my HH is not such a big deal.

And as a side note thanks for sharing I think its important. Keep your head up bro
 
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BiGz

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I just wanted to add to this a background story that I haven't actually shared with anyone before and has pretty much scarred me since and knocked my self confidence badly. When I was 17 and had finished school I got this crappy job at a furniture business. A the time I didn't know what HH was but I was aware of the sweating but had no idea how to control it. As I was working in a warehouse I used to get really hot and sweat more than the others, my boss made comments about wearing deodrant which of course I knew was directed at me, I didn't know about the qualities of deodrants stopping bacteria etc so didn't know what to do as up till than they had all failed (lynx sucks crap) eventually my supervisor took me aside and said I know you sweat more than the rest of us but if this happens again I'm sending you home early from here on in (I only worked from 9-12) It was after this that by pure accident I found out the deodrants that worked, than 3years later thanks to getting the internet I did research found I had HH and the rest as they say is history.

I just wanted to say this so you can see how I personally can emphasize with you.
 
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brunettee

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I to have been took aside at places ive worked and been told people i work with find it difficult to work with me because of the smell that knocked my confidence even more. Its bliss ignorance i feel like screaming sometimes not everyone that smells does not bath. I work now but it is a struggle sometimes i dont like bein to near to people and try to keep my arms up to stop the sweating comeing threw and mask the smell with perfume. And yes i can relate to you cause sometimes i hate life and wish i didnt have this life wreaker (under arm hh) but i push myself to go to work and do my work and keep my head down. I dont socialize cause it looks quite strange someone sat there with there arms up all night. I dont know why i was givin this curse non of my family have it i dont even know anybody personally that does have it. Lifes pretty crap for us hh sufferers but i try to plod on hopeing for a miracle cure.
 
BiGz

BiGz

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I agree it was summed up in the most perfect way... Heres a thought pursue creative writing, work from home perfect for a HH sufferer.
 
teandtoast

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brunettee said:
I to have been took aside at places ive worked and been told people i work with find it difficult to work with me because of the smell that knocked my confidence even more. Its bliss ignorance i feel like screaming sometimes not everyone that smells does not bath. I work now but it is a struggle sometimes i dont like bein to near to people and try to keep my arms up to stop the sweating comeing threw and mask the smell with perfume. And yes i can relate to you cause sometimes i hate life and wish i didnt have this life wreaker (under arm hh) but i push myself to go to work and do my work and keep my head down. I dont socialize cause it looks quite strange someone sat there with there arms up all night. I dont know why i was givin this curse non of my family have it i dont even know anybody personally that does have it. Lifes pretty crap for us hh sufferers but i try to plod on hopeing for a miracle cure.
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yep this and the initial post I can totally relate to and is pretty much me.
Everything I do is planned around HH and if certain situations seem like I would be too sweaty they they are no go (which is alot/most things)...and it does my head in.

Ive lost lots of friends over the years through this and becoming more and more of a hermet and friends as such thinking Im weird etc

Getting totally out of my face drunk at the weekends is all I ever have to look forward to now...don't have any ambitions etc anymore ...just life goal to be cured of this shite condition

I got this condition around 21 (now 25) and so was at the time living my life fully and in a way Im guess Im lucky I had till then at least but makes me sad at the same time how I used to be and have no worries
 
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brunettee

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i started with this in school about 13 im now 24 and its ruled my life ever since well i had an operation 2 and half years ago and i was fine my quality of life improved so much its returned about 6 months ago the sweating isnt as severe but the odar has come back bad and thats what bothers me most. my life revolves around it to i try not to go any where busy if a shop is busy when i walk in i walk back out again and try a diffrent one and ive lost friends myself over the years not that i had many to begin with. and my own goal is to be cured permantly. Im having that curettage surgery done in june thats keepin me going at the minute. I need something to look forward to i hope it works cause theres nothing else after that. I tried everythin botox them deodrants even drastic surgery but it hasnt worked permantly for me. So if it doesnt i dont know where to go from there but fingers crossed it is going to work.

Everything you just said is me i get drunk alone in the house and away from everybody which is pretty sad when you weigh it up but id rather be sad than in some pub being ridiculed.
 
Sure_whynot

Sure_whynot

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I want to thank each one of you for your support, and for sharing your stories with me.

Although I'll never meet any of you, this post has made me feel a little less alone.

I've come to the bitter-sweet conclusion that my life revolves around Hyperhidrosis, and thats probably never going to change, but that doesn't mean that my life will be wasted.

In the future I will be working to unify the HH community, whether it be through a foundation to further research, or through another method.

Our suffering shan't be wasted, and progress must eventually be made.
 
penmark_impact

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Sure_whynot said:
I want to thank each one of you for your support, and for sharing your stories with me.

Although I'll never meet any of you, this post has made me feel a little less alone.

I've come to the bitter-sweet conclusion that my life revolves around Hyperhidrosis, and thats probably never going to change, but that doesn't mean that my life will be wasted.

In the future I will be working to unify the HH community, whether it be through a foundation to further research, or through another method.

Our suffering shan't be wasted, and progress must eventually be made.
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:D Well said
 
appletree

appletree

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"I wonder, what kind of weak F**k lets HH run their life like me?
Im weak, and I deserve this. Its my own fault, im pathetic."

never ever think that.
I have hh, alongside a lot of other things like adhd and maybe dyslexia.
never give up, oh and don't ever let anybody give you any hassle about your sweating, if anyone comments on it just say yeh so what?
accept yourself totally
:)
 
Sure_whynot

Sure_whynot

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appletree said:
"I wonder, what kind of weak F**k lets HH run their life like me?
Im weak, and I deserve this. Its my own fault, im pathetic."

never ever think that.
I have hh, alongside a lot of other things like adhd and maybe dyslexia.
never give up, oh and don't ever let anybody give you any hassle about your sweating, if anyone comments on it just say yeh so what?
accept yourself totally
:)
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Thank you for your optimistic advice.

Unfortunately logic often falls short when emotion takes over.

Making things "easier said then done".

But then again, I guess were all just works in progress. =]

x Sure
 
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