Feeling bad about this situation

So there is this girl who likes me a lot that i used to like. After knowing her more I decided that I rather be friends with her since she is quite narrow minded and to be honest not the smartest person around ( not just school wise, but personality wise, she is can be quite b*tchy and complains none stop, and I really mean none stop) and we just doesn't have much to say to each other.

This whole thing started last summer and keep going on to this very day

Now I don't mind her talking to her every now and then, but the problem is that I'm hooked on our more adult conversations ( online ) and it makes me say stuff that I'll never try to back up in real life. So at school it's starting to make thing very awkward as she is expecting things that I'm only interested to do to her in fantasy world.

I realized that i'm not interested in her in a physical way, even though she is gorgeous ( not my type though), it's just the fact that she participate in my fantasies and help their graphic nature make it seem like I I'm interested in her. Every time we finish an " Episode" I just feel like avoiding her until I need another "fix". Thinking about having a normal conversation with her just doesn't work anymore.

I told her it's just fantasy, but i guess she doesn't get it because she likes me and just want me to be with her in any possible way. And to make matters worse it's the exact same thing that happened to me and my former best friend, though I was the victim at that time.

We had an off period when she was chasing after a guy who had a gf since I couldn't show any real life interest. I only missed her because of those conversation, other than that didn't even notice her missing.

Now that it didn't work with the other guy she is back after me, reviving those old conversation we used to have.

I thought about blocking her for the major part of the winter vacation, but she is my only escape from loneliness since I found out that my ultimate crush, as my friend call her, as a bf.

So yea I don't know what to do anymore i'm just lost.

ps i want to apologize for my english, the length of the thread and to anyone I may offend with what I wrote

It sounds like you already know you aren't doing the noble thing here. Nobody really likes to be used. Breaking off ties with her is the nicest thing you can do for her.

Absolutely_Sweet_Marie said:

It sounds like you already know you aren't doing the noble thing here. Nobody really likes to be used. Breaking off ties with her is the nicest thing you can do for her.

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Agreed with Sweet Marie here. You are aware that what you're doing isn't normal and it's best to let her go.

Be prepared for some hatred on her side, though, because you've made it seem like you're into her and now you're going to let her go. She may even be very upset about it. I can't see any other way around.

very well, it does seem like the best idea. Wow it's gonna be awkward next semester