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Well, pretty much the 1st half of your post describes escapism. Escaping into your own head. A result of your isolation perhaps.

You sound like you may well have social anxiety. I had similar experiences in high school myself.

Boxer said:

But that was a terrible mistake, because there are so many people all around the place. On my first day I realized that I was extremely uncomfortable and left within the first 10 minutes.

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A result of jumping into the deep end without any practice swimming, from the sounds of it.

I'd say it would be in your interests to look into therapy, and at least try to get yourself diagnosed.

Your post was a pretty easy read for something so long. I appreciate articulate people. Welcome to SPW.

it sounds like you just need to take a chill pill. every one has their own uniquiness and in highschool everyone else is just as insecure and worried as you are. they are trying to figure out who they want to be and they dont want anyone to judge them. so in a sense you have the same fears as everyone else. i think that you should go back to your boxing class, because when you get older and your fears are mostly gone you are going to look back and say man i wish i would have done this or that. and imagine the friends you are missing out on right now by not interacting with anyone. you need to try to now because soon you will be graduated and you'll have to get a job and you will definitely have to interact with people. also when you start into something like the boxing class focus on the task at hand not the people around you because once you get into the exercising that will take your mind off of your surroundings. something else that might help is(this is blunt but true) just remember this, ive learned since graduating that even though you feel like everything is about you and everyone is focusing all there attention on you, they are not, frankly people could care less. not that they dont care about you but they are not nit picking everything little thing that you are doing.

Yeah it sounds like escapism, and it also sounds like Paranoia since you said you feel like your being watched.
My Mom is a big time escaper, she talks to herself and daydreams a lot, plays stuff out in her head..shes been like that as far back as I remember, she has even done it in the presence of others but she like whispers but you can still hear shes having almost liek a conversation with herself. although I dont think she would do it at say work because shes aware of others.
I would also dare to say it sounds like Schizophrena what your going through..but you really should see someone to find out for sure.