Barry1723
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It happened last week and I'm ashamed to admit it but when I first heard the news I was very happy. Once the joy wore off I looked up the website of the funeral home where his wake will be held and I found a memorial video for him. When I started watching it I felt bad for feeling happy about his death but when the pictures got to the age I remember him and I saw the same kid who made my life hell for the years I knew him laughing and having a happy life it brought back so much hatred for him.
Now I feel conflicted, this was about 20 years ago and I've hated him ever since but I feel bad about that.
I know I should get over it but he and people like him made my life miserable throughout most of my school life until the 12th grade where they just ignored me. How can I forget something like that when I'm still suffering the effects to some degree to this day?
I realize I'm not blameless in my failures in life but I also can't help but wonder what kind of person I would have become if I hadn't been bullied and lost any self esteem I might have had when I was a kid.
Now I feel conflicted, this was about 20 years ago and I've hated him ever since but I feel bad about that.
I know I should get over it but he and people like him made my life miserable throughout most of my school life until the 12th grade where they just ignored me. How can I forget something like that when I'm still suffering the effects to some degree to this day?
I realize I'm not blameless in my failures in life but I also can't help but wonder what kind of person I would have become if I hadn't been bullied and lost any self esteem I might have had when I was a kid.