Och aye the noo

[theslowesthand]

I've always took it to mean "OK right now?"

 

[Graeme1988]

Haha it's all good mate! I was just feelin a little... lonely at the moment I posted that lol. The site was unusually quiet, so I thought I'd see if I could get a response!

Lookin' fur a reaction, eh? Well, ye did right by provoking a Scottish person.

It's awrite! Ah wus'nae too offended by it. :thumbup:
Would've been raging if ah hud a few drinks in me, mind. But thankfully I'm currently and sadly sober.

My humor can be a little.. off kilter at times

Ma sense o' humour's same at times. Yin day ah think somebuddy'll take umbrage and just belt me yin in the face. Got a funny feeling that might happen in a few months time.

 

[Graeme1988]

I've always took it to mean "OK right now?"

Same here. Though, it's quite funny that some foreign folk - particularly Americans - think it's an actual Scottish saying. Mind you, so do some English folk. That said it's awkward as f**k if somebuddy greets you using "Och the noo!" Cuz, it's quite embarrassing huvin tae tell 'em that naebuddy ever say that in Scotland... ever!

 

[Graeme1988]

Why bother, eh? Why! Life - it's just a f**kin' waste o' time for tha likes o' me. A miserable, boring existence...

Tryin' tae appease folk who don't give a fly f**k about ye. At least, that how my family are. Throwin' f**kin' mega-tantrums at being telt, "No, I'm no daein' that. Sorry". Storming off in tha huff at being answered back to, because how dare somebuddy in my family exercise that right to freedom of choice.

Funny how feminists dinnae take too kindly to being telt whit tae do, yet couldnae be happier when asserting their authority over other folk. Sorry, don't mean to rant aboot this, it's just when ye live with 'em, yer exposed tae it day in, day oot. Also, I believe, just because ye happen to be related to somebuddy, that doesnae mean we all huv tae get along and agree on everything, or like them at all. Ken whit ah mean? Like huvin one thing in common with somebuddy fur me doesnae actually mean: "Aw, yay! We're best pals" :no:

 

[Hot_Tamale]

@Graeme
I know what ya mean. It feels like it's hard wired in my genetics or DNA or whatever to love my family members but it's my choice to like 'em or not.

 

[Graeme1988]

@Graeme
I know what ya mean. It feels like it's hard wired in my genetics or DNA or whatever to love my family members but it's my choice to like 'em or not.

Exactly! erfect:

Finally... somebuddy who understands. :applause: :bowing: Because I'm getting really fed-up with being telt thst I'm a selfish, inconsiderate, uncaring [insert expletive here] whenever I try to explain this to the wimmin in my immediate family. :thumbdown:

 

[theslowesthand]

Why bother, eh? Why! Life - it's just a f**kin' waste o' time for tha likes o' me. A miserable, boring existence...

I couldn't agree more. :sad:

Funny how feminists dinnae take too kindly to being telt whit tae do, yet couldnae be happier when asserting their authority over other folk.

I wonder if feminists are actually just control freaks???

Also, I believe, just because ye happen to be related to somebuddy, that doesnae mean we all huv tae get along and agree on everything, or like them at all. Ken whit ah mean? Like huvin one thing in common with somebuddy fur me doesnae actually mean: "Aw, yay! We're best pals" :no:

Well my dad is a part-time w*nker, which means w*nker in my book, & he's my #2 worst enemy (i'm my #1 worst enemy i guess). If he died tomorrow, part of me would be glad.

 

[Graeme1988]

I couldn't agree more. :sad:

Aye, it's a struggle for the likes o' us.

I wonder if feminists are actually just control freaks???

From my personal experience I came to that conclusion afore my 20s. After my self-esteem and confidence got the absolute shit beaten outta them. Ah don't know... ye hear something said about ye enough times that, it's doesnae so much become true, it's just yer never allowed to defend yersel' against the claims, y'know? Because whatever ye say, ends up being twisted and used against ye.

At least, that's the tactics used by my family when I criticise them for anything.

And I've internalise a lotta the unfair and unjust criticisms levelled at me over the year. Which isn't the best coping mechanism, but what else can ye do when not even a wrong word can be so much as uttered that is critical in the presence of yer ain family? Otherwise, ye get a f**kin' Scottish reenactment of Joe Pesci's "Funny how? scene in Goodfella.

It's one o' the main reason why I tend to be so introverted, reserved, quiet and cooperative. Since it's f**kin' stressful having to yell, shout, and repeately argue just to get what you see as rightly yours - living life on your terms. And, y'know, being treat how you want to be treated.

I don't know, man. When ye got compared to yer dad enough times - which for me went beyond lookin' like the b@$%@*! - you become that person, y'know? But my mum has burdened me with being solely responsible for that. So much, for the idea of children being a reflect of the parent(s) who raised 'em

Well my dad is a part-time w*nker, which means w*nker in my book, & he's my #2 worst enemy (i'm my #1 worst enemy i guess). If he died tomorrow, part of me would be glad.

Only part-time? Mine was a full-time yin. Still, ah felt the same way when he died - glad. Though, the conflicting feelings came later, reading my dad obituary. Cuz it's kinda hard to reconcile all the bad shit I'd been told about my dad, as well as his attitude towards me, with this supposedly great, caring guy everybuddy but me knew.

And, ah wus'nae jist referring to the parents when I said that thing in ma last post aboot how, just cuz yer related to somebuddy doesnae mean ye huv to get along. I meant siblings, cousins, etc. Then I was raised in this strictly religious, conservative family, where criticism is seen as a deeply personal attack, regardless of context. Unless you were a man, in which case, being criticised is just the family telling it like it is. :kickingmyself:

 

[Graeme1988]

So many stories tae tell, but nae idea where to begin... :idontknow:

As well as, y'know, things that huv been pissing me right off, lately. :kickingmyself:

 

[Graeme1988]

Quite sad that anger and sadness are the emotion I seem capable of conveying. :kickingmyself: I've forgot what it's like to be happy in an individual sense, if ye get me? :sad:

Y'know, always making other folk happy, but ah seem to get shamed as "being selfish" whenever I put myself first. But, f**k me, I'd gie ye the shirt off ma back if ye needed or wanted it. Because ah've realised that's my purpose in life, sadly.

Like today, ah got woken up this morning at half past 11. Why? I had to be up and feed afore my mum watched her favourite TV show came. F**k the fact I was wakened at 2 o'clock this morning with a stomach and violent diarrhoea. Ye would think that deserving of a long stint in bed, but naw. Well, if yer a wummin would. Sorry, if that seems more sexist than intended. Just sayin'...

Then it's the usual complains about joint pain and what have ye, which I can only sympathy with so much, as somebuddy who deal with joint pains on a daily basis thanks to my disability. Though, ah found complaining doesnae really help reduce or better the problem.

 

[Graeme1988]

Ma other pet peeve is the constant procrastination ah huv to put up with. Are people who hoard stuff like this: huvin' this f**kin' aversion tae clearing stuff oot? Because it's been tha same story for a year that "...we'll need tae git that done". Hud a prime opportunity when ah wus laid up in plasters, post-surgery. But again, nope! Got tae worry aboot the young c*nt in his late 20s who's much smarter and capable than we give him a chance o' being. Because mum - the geriatric feminist - needs tae feel needed. Or in control, to use the proper term.

Because, hell mend ye that you'd continue to be overbearing despite constant pleads to back-off. How many times d'ye need tae be telt, like?

Sorry, it just pisses me off that I'm always the yin taking the bloody initiative in terms of making sure stuff gets done, and I'm constantly demeaned for it. :thumbdown: h:
It's almost like feminists don't actually want men to act like men, in the sense of the gender roles, but rather like wimmin. So feminists can behave more like men, in terms of being dominate and aggressive, but still retain that victimhood card when it comes to taking responsibility for their actions? :question: Sorry, just being raised by a feminist who taught me that the art of self-hatred, ye tend to ask yersel' these kinda questions. :idontknow:

Ah dinnae ken, once ye get excuse after excuse levelled at ye for trying make sure somebuddy keeps their word, ye get sick o' hearing them efter awhile.
Anyway, that's enough o' ma rambling for yin day.

 

[defiance]

So many stories tae tell, but nae idea where to begin... :idontknow:

As well as, y'know, things that huv been pissing me right off, lately. :kickingmyself:

Right there with you man. It's like there is so much sh*t that you don't even know how to sort them out in your mind because that's how cluttered it is. At least for me.

 

[Graeme1988]

Right there with you man. It's like there is so much sh*t that you don't even know how to sort them out in your mind because that's how cluttered it is. At least for me.

Aye, it's the same with me, mate.

Plus, some many mental "Wait! Did that just happen?! family related moment tend to only happen whenever I'm around. A vast majority o' them involving my mum being her usual eccentric, deranged, f**k-nugget self and me quietly dying.... on the inside. mg:

But hey, if they want to act silly and immature around me - and talk shit about me behind my back, that's fine. The mixed messages are getting a bit irritating, though. I can't be both a slow-in-the-heid simpleton who's incapable of doing anything right and the smartest person in tha f**kin' room. Either, my disability defines me and my life or it doesn't. :kickingmyself:

 

[Graeme1988]

Don't know what tae write here... Seriously, like. Seems a bit unfair tae sit here n' just rant aboot how shite ma life hus become. Since that's stating the bloody obvious at this point, y'know. Even though, ah huv mair reasons to be complaining than bottling it aw up inside.

The isolation doesnae even bother me anymore. Mind you, it never really did. Got used to being alone afore ma teenage years, so it's nowt new. Guess being introverted helps with that anaw. Better tae keep quiet than make a complete fool o' yersel'.

Though, it's no the happiest existence, living by somebuddy else's strict rules. Being subjected tae emotional abuse and manipulation everytime ye so much as ask a simple question. Letting fear and expectation influence every thought ye huv and decision ye make. Worst still, yer ain folks don't even see the damage they're doing by treat ye like shit. Naw, ah deserve it, apparently.7

Being more scared shitless o' yer own family than somebuddy ye don't even know, like. But, at the same time, still being afraid of people.

The worst thing is having so little control over your life, though. To the point where ye just give up all self-sufficiency in favour of collectivism. All because of the fear of what they'll think o' ye, how they'll judge ye. Yer own family, who, in my case, love me, but only when I do as I told.

But that's how it is, same ol' routine everyday for the last 14 years. Because if I ever try to do anything different, I'm discourage from do so. No real reason, really. It's just how my family would prefer me. Stuck in that role of co-dependent, at the expense of how things should be.
Me - happy, healthy and independent.

 

[Graeme1988]

Death would be a welcome relief right about now. :sad: :kickingmyself:
Because, truth be telt, ma life hasn't been a happy yin. Being brought up to believe this, raised a certain way; act like this, treat how you'd want to be treated, etc.

But it really means f**k all, cuz people don't care. They don't. My family treat me like shit, then huv the f**kin' nerve to take umbrage when I speak to them in the same condenscending, slow tone as they do. Treating me like I'm f**kin' thick! :thumbdown:

Getting really fed-up with being brow-beaten and ordered about all the time. Being told to do this, at this certain time or else... Though, that's threat usually empty since, y'know? Me, being the weight and build I am, and being just a few inches short of being the exact same height of my bedroom door. Aye, ah wouldnae be messing, either

 

[Graeme1988]

But then, even emotional manipulation doesnae work on me. Hasn't done for a long time, like after turning 18, ah realised ah wus be far more empathetic toward ma ain family than they huv every been towards me.

How d'ye dae that tae somebuddy who's past the point of actually caring anyway? Cuz that's the point I'm at. Don't give a f**k! My responsibility is tae me n' me alone.
If that makes me a c*nt then I'm a c*nt. Ah mean, you could tell me yer leaving and not comin' back, wouldnae even faze me.

Ma response wouldnae be the greeting-faced beg:

"Dinnae leave me. Please! Ah wouldnae know whit tae dae withoot ye" :crying:
Nut! I'd just look it ye, and calmly say: "Awrite, then. Away ye go! Nae skin off ma nose"​

Sorry for another embittered rant session. It's just ah dinnae ken whit tae do. :idontknow: On the yin hand, I'd be much happier if certain family members weren't in my life anymore. Like I should cut all contact, shortly after telling my dad to f**k off. Cuz it wus not long after cutting him outta ma life, that the rest o' my family starting treating me like shit. But on the other, they need me more than I actually need them. So, do I just put up with the controlling, manipulative behaviour or...? :idontknow:

 

[theslowesthand]

Looked up "****-nugget" to see what it meant (was oxford word of the year for 2016)

Got this at bottom of google search page
"Searches related to ****-nugget
thundercunt
nugget person
cockwomble
...
"

(have u heard of those expressions? They don't seem particularly scottish, naw they don't! hehe)

 

[Graeme1988]

Looked up "****-nugget" to see what it meant (was oxford word of the year for 2016)

Got this at bottom of google search page
"Searches related to ****-nugget
thundercunt
nugget person
cockwomble
...
"

(have u heard of those expressions? They don't seem particularly scottish, naw they don't! hehe)

Only thunderc*nt. :bigsmile: Naw, they're no really Scottish, but still very funny expressions, nonetheless. Much like the insults "knob-jockey" and "c*nt-biscuit".

 

[Graeme1988]

Not feelin' too great at the moment. My life feels so boring, directionless and pointless.

My mind feels cluttered. I'm knackered. Huv'nae been getting much sleep. Ah feel like this trying to motivate my mum to do stuff is just failing, because she doesnae give a f**k and would rather make excuses than tidy the house, except when family visit occur. That's when she spend 3 days straight getting the house as tidy as possible. Got to keep up that front, I guess. :idontknow:

Wish this toenail infection would hurry up n' heal, because I really need to get back in shape. Oh, and it turns out it's not an ingrown toenails but hard callus skin that became infected thanks to my sister continuiously prodding n' poking at it. Aye, she admits that now, weeks after the fact. And me telling her repeateadly to stop pulling at it. h: But hey, naebuddy listens to me. :kickingmyself:

 

[Graeme1988]

I feel as if my inner self forgot that overtime it was supposed to mature but it never did. A child cannot survive alone in a complicated world. Yet that is what I am forced to do because I feel I am still a child in an adult body.

This is pretty how I feel about myself most days. :sad: Though, I'm about ready to just give up. Since I'm finding the strain of having balance my obilgations towards myself - taking care o' masel' n' that - with the demands and expectations others have for me all too much to handle.

Don't get me wrong I try, but I always end up failing. Always.