INEVITABLE
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Hey guys, im an African kid from South Africa suffering a severe Social Phobia and extremely poor eye sight. These two combination alone made sure im the worst loser to ever step foot in this world. I mean i don't know the purpose of me being alive,just the same depressing boring life everyday. I lack any motivation whatsoever to do anything or better my life.
And in African societies (In S.A at least) Things like depression and Social Phobia the are almost nonexistent e.g if you tell a person that you are depressed the will just take it as joke or think that you are straight up lazy."What kind of a person are you?"Is one the questions that im frequently asked by,mostly my mom,and it is the one that depletes every bit of hope i would have had until then because it reminds me that there's no place for me in this earth that will accept or understand me.
And the other problem I have is my mom,who compares me with other peers of mine who gradually shows maturity and Independence while I still show traits of a 10 year old.She also complain about how im such a shame to the family and how she would have bartered me with exchange of anything.
When it comes to friends and a girlfriend i have none and never had.I had few friends in the past but not earnest ones just people who found a fool to take advantage of.I have 0 connections with females,never acquainted a female person in my life, whether is a friend or a girlfriend.But i think Im well without them as they intimidate and frighten the hell out of me.
I have known and frequently visited this site for a year but I was scared to register because of judgements that may accure. Im highly susceptible to criticism and a tiny judgement can live with me for days
Excuse my English and grammar, English is not my native language.Thanks in advance to anyone who took time to read or reply.......my writing is quite horrible im scared to submit
And in African societies (In S.A at least) Things like depression and Social Phobia the are almost nonexistent e.g if you tell a person that you are depressed the will just take it as joke or think that you are straight up lazy."What kind of a person are you?"Is one the questions that im frequently asked by,mostly my mom,and it is the one that depletes every bit of hope i would have had until then because it reminds me that there's no place for me in this earth that will accept or understand me.
And the other problem I have is my mom,who compares me with other peers of mine who gradually shows maturity and Independence while I still show traits of a 10 year old.She also complain about how im such a shame to the family and how she would have bartered me with exchange of anything.
When it comes to friends and a girlfriend i have none and never had.I had few friends in the past but not earnest ones just people who found a fool to take advantage of.I have 0 connections with females,never acquainted a female person in my life, whether is a friend or a girlfriend.But i think Im well without them as they intimidate and frighten the hell out of me.
I have known and frequently visited this site for a year but I was scared to register because of judgements that may accure. Im highly susceptible to criticism and a tiny judgement can live with me for days
Excuse my English and grammar, English is not my native language.Thanks in advance to anyone who took time to read or reply.......my writing is quite horrible im scared to submit