Psychedelicious said:
I have seriously blocked out most of my memories from that long ago. I really have no idea. I know some pretty bad stuff happened to me, but I don't remember and I don't even want to know what it is.
This is interesting. I have a control freak mother that did all sorts of psych shit to me. I remember a lot of them and some i'm sure i forgot, but did not 'block' it out permanently.
Some of them were:
1. In Kindergarten I brought home a bird that I chose to color brown (my eyes and hair were brown). She ripped it and threw it out in the garbage and said, "What an ugly bird, why didn't you pick a prettier color like blue"
2. She always raved about how she missed out in life and has no nice watches, so about 5 years old I bought her a watch from a local drug store. She threw it out and said "what, you think i like cheap garbage such as this"
I can say the psych shit goes on and on from criticisms to belittling --- AND ITS ALL SO THEY CAN HAVE YOU IN THE END. You can't make any friends or have a normal life so they FUCK YOU UP - on PURPOSE!!!!
And they do so cuz they love you, btw, it's hard to differentiate - cuz in their own sick way they do love you.
Oh and here are some physical ones:
1. My mother dragged me by the hair while pulling me across the apartment we had when i was in 7th grade.
2. When i was about 10 she made me scrub the kitchen floor (was a beautiful ceramic tile 10x10 kitchen - we weren't poor) while she sang CHA CHA and kicked me repeatedly in a corner.
ok , that's just to name a few, there's more, but this is already a long post and I just have to add that when I started punching / kicking her back in 7th grade or so, the physical stopped.