Digi
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I wish to know what's going on is wrong or right?
To start with I suffer a quick reaction reflex which can be put under agression aka when somebody touches me i'm likley to hit them by accident and not even know I do it till after the event.
I have been bullied from the age of 5-6 years old and am now 19 and still bullied to this day it is true i have thought of suicide but have never done anything.
anyhow here's the deal i'm in a workbase learning college to help get myself into a job and i'm around others from 16-19 years of age.
The first inccident was a girl was pretending to be "intrested" in me and said a few things but I just icnored them, after a while she moved her chair closer to me and I got up to move away and she placed her hand on my backside. Well without warning I turned around and slapped her in much discust but soon after felt bad despite the whole class was laughing and said she deserved it. I got a verbal warning for that as we are not allowed to make psyical contact.
The second time was I was sat a bus stop contented on playing my gameboy by myself (I don't rearly get on with anybody so often i am happy to be in my own company) and a young lad jumps out at me shouting and scares the hell out of me so by accident I kicked him between the legs but ddin't actually make any psyicall contact.
Now this boy had already been hassling me for some unknown reason, I had never spoken to him before.
Soon after he began to shout abuse at me and bang the bus stop making me jump each time and this would continue with,"haha look she sh*te herself this time".
Well I whent into to report this and had belived it was sorted and we was to be kept seprate and he was not happy to be moved and shouted abuse and me and stupidly I answerd back and told him to shut up and just do it, well then I pulled aside by a training staff and told to be carefull I was lucky to be on this course after last time. I was deeply upset about this as last time had been an accident as had this, I have no control of myself and am going for counciling.
Yesterday i got a message form my brother that this boy had told my brother's mate he planned to have me beaten up to near death and then slit my throat. I was again not happy but upon that day whent to college and forgot about it, on the way home again he shouted abuse. I decided today to tell a training staff and I forgotten her own words but she was practially saying it's your own fault for attacking him and again i was lucky to be here.
This has rearly upset me I don't want to leave my college because I want help getting a job but if this continues I am not sure I can stay much longer, I am used to the students saying the odd few things here and there because I rearlise I am diffrent from them but i hate it when they persist.
I was told when joining my college they had a no bullying terms but i get the feeling this is just a lie. Please tell me if I am in the right or are they?
Thankyou
To start with I suffer a quick reaction reflex which can be put under agression aka when somebody touches me i'm likley to hit them by accident and not even know I do it till after the event.
I have been bullied from the age of 5-6 years old and am now 19 and still bullied to this day it is true i have thought of suicide but have never done anything.
anyhow here's the deal i'm in a workbase learning college to help get myself into a job and i'm around others from 16-19 years of age.
The first inccident was a girl was pretending to be "intrested" in me and said a few things but I just icnored them, after a while she moved her chair closer to me and I got up to move away and she placed her hand on my backside. Well without warning I turned around and slapped her in much discust but soon after felt bad despite the whole class was laughing and said she deserved it. I got a verbal warning for that as we are not allowed to make psyical contact.
The second time was I was sat a bus stop contented on playing my gameboy by myself (I don't rearly get on with anybody so often i am happy to be in my own company) and a young lad jumps out at me shouting and scares the hell out of me so by accident I kicked him between the legs but ddin't actually make any psyicall contact.
Now this boy had already been hassling me for some unknown reason, I had never spoken to him before.
Soon after he began to shout abuse at me and bang the bus stop making me jump each time and this would continue with,"haha look she sh*te herself this time".
Well I whent into to report this and had belived it was sorted and we was to be kept seprate and he was not happy to be moved and shouted abuse and me and stupidly I answerd back and told him to shut up and just do it, well then I pulled aside by a training staff and told to be carefull I was lucky to be on this course after last time. I was deeply upset about this as last time had been an accident as had this, I have no control of myself and am going for counciling.
Yesterday i got a message form my brother that this boy had told my brother's mate he planned to have me beaten up to near death and then slit my throat. I was again not happy but upon that day whent to college and forgot about it, on the way home again he shouted abuse. I decided today to tell a training staff and I forgotten her own words but she was practially saying it's your own fault for attacking him and again i was lucky to be here.
This has rearly upset me I don't want to leave my college because I want help getting a job but if this continues I am not sure I can stay much longer, I am used to the students saying the odd few things here and there because I rearlise I am diffrent from them but i hate it when they persist.
I was told when joining my college they had a no bullying terms but i get the feeling this is just a lie. Please tell me if I am in the right or are they?
Thankyou