rigby1987
Well-known member
I don't know what to do anymore .
I'm just here existing rotting away doing nothing all day everyday (not out of choice ) with no one to help.
I cant stop worrying about whats in store for the future and worrying how i will cope with the even more worthless un-achieving feeling im going to be faced with in the years to come.
Since 16 when i left school to now 23 i have achieved nothing whatsoever apart from moving away to live on my own which hasn't helped. I dread the next 7 and the 7 years after that and how i will continue to live on.
I honestly can say i would rather be dead than carry on this way , its eating away at me and i feel like im going to have to give in soon .( im not wanting pity either i just dont see any other way out ) .
I dont want to feel this way but i cant see it ever changing for me . If it was going to change it would have by now , the problem lies with my anxiety/depression/social phobia but how the hell am i meant to change it when i have felt this way for all my life.
I just don't know how im physically meant to " go on "
Sorry for the going-on-ness ::
Does anybody else have any worries for the future or are you able to focus on today?
Thanks for reading
I'm just here existing rotting away doing nothing all day everyday (not out of choice ) with no one to help.
I cant stop worrying about whats in store for the future and worrying how i will cope with the even more worthless un-achieving feeling im going to be faced with in the years to come.
Since 16 when i left school to now 23 i have achieved nothing whatsoever apart from moving away to live on my own which hasn't helped. I dread the next 7 and the 7 years after that and how i will continue to live on.
I honestly can say i would rather be dead than carry on this way , its eating away at me and i feel like im going to have to give in soon .( im not wanting pity either i just dont see any other way out ) .
I dont want to feel this way but i cant see it ever changing for me . If it was going to change it would have by now , the problem lies with my anxiety/depression/social phobia but how the hell am i meant to change it when i have felt this way for all my life.
I just don't know how im physically meant to " go on "
Sorry for the going-on-ness ::
Does anybody else have any worries for the future or are you able to focus on today?
Thanks for reading