Wish I was dead

[Neebo]

I seem to be getting more and more paranoid as each day goe's by and its driving me mad :x I'm even starting to think my own families against me! :? Its like they can't even look me in the eye properly they always seem to look down at my legs or my stomach which is really annoying :x I feel really shitty and inferior and its just getting worse and I just don't know what to do anymore :? I'm starting to feel like an outcast in my own family Infact I'm just a saddo loser with no life,no friends and no girlfriend. I've also got no qualifications as I had to drop out of school and my life's going nowhere. I really hate myself and sometimes I wish I was dead. If only I had the guts :roll:

 

[Bexi]

O gosh neebo i feel like this sometimes, it sucks. Ru on meds or in counselling? What ru doing to help yourself at the moment? x PM me if u want to

 

[paul]

hey Neebo, I can imagine that feeling paranoid to the extent that you feel like your family is against you would be really exhausting. Like bexi said do you have counselling?

I don't think you're shitty or inferior. I think of paranoia not so much as being "crazy" or "detached from reality" but instead just a heightened awareness of people in general.

Good luck Neebo!

 

[Hurricane]

it may be hard to believe but it's all in our head, your family isn't looking down on you, that's what you think, people's actions have nothing to do with how you feel, it's on how u perceive those actions, happyness isn't about circumstances but about how u perceive those in your head
I know it's hard to think that way, but I'm learning...and I am far from cured but knowing this has helped me some

 

[4myself]

Believe that you are an important and valuable person and that you are worth living for. maybe also try and avoid your family for a while if they are making you feel bad.

 

[Richey]

Family can sometimes have bad intentions. My parents seem to be against freedom of speech and individuality. Life can be a pain sometimes. Try to distance yourself from your family for a while. They dont own you and you are not a posession to them.
I have friends who have a wonderful relationship with their folks because they dont take things too seriously. If your parents dont want to be more then just parents and if they dont want to be your friend as well then just stay clear of them for a while.
Family is important but if they are always nagging and hasseling you then you need to think about whats best for your own health.
I became very honest and opinionated with my folks and they were not accepting of me at all.
My dad just loses control if i accidently leave the newspaper open on the kitchen table. Small things like that.
So basically trying to talk to them made it worse
Life doesnt usually work out they way we intend sometimes.
Keep positive 8)

 

[Neebo]

Hi guy's,thankyou for your replies and support I just felt really down and depressed yesterday and it just hit me about just how fucked up and messed up my life is at the moment. I am supposed to be on meds but I don't take it because it doesn't really work,infact it only makes me feel worse I'm currently on a waiting list for psychotherapy but that isn't until january next year :x So I'm thinking about making a consultation with a private therapist to see how much it will cost. I've already told my parents and they think its a good idea.

 

[aoao]

aww i felt dead inside for the longest time too

i think people are getting me out of my shell kinda though, more people are trying to contact me and someone wants to set me up on a date soon. :O and i've been having an easier time socializing at work now.

 

[Lost_Nomad]

I feal like an outcast in my family too. actualy i for the most part try not to interact with my family, I feel to uncomfortable around them, plus they get on my nerves a lot. :roll: . I see them doing things without me and although they ask some times to join in i never do. why do they look at you fun, is it just some thing you feel they are doing or is it a changed in the way they interact with you. I find parents today can push their kids too much to " succeed", and if they cant the shame from family realy can put a lot of stress on kids. dont stress your self out about it, take it one step at a time.

 

[4myself]

hey Neebo, if your medication isnt working have you considered getting your doctor to switch you to another type?. It may be worth the hassle if it makes you feel better in the long run.

 

[LittleMissScareAll]

I wish i was dead too...or better yet, never born at all so I would have never been here to begin with. That would be nice.

 

[ColdFury]

I wish i was dead too...or better yet, never born at all so I would have never been here to begin with. That would be nice.

Me too. I wish I never existed.

 

[young]

Yes. but what about all those lives you've touched. And never even realized that you did.

 

[sillsbs]

I wish I was dead everyday, all the time.

 

[LittleMissScareAll]

But then you wouldn't have brightened up our day by letting us see your post on here......bloody little tease! (LMSA...some of us "experts" (hahahah) look forward to seeing you here...great dreads!)...come play our silly reindeer games.....

I dont see how I could brighten anyone's day, with my negative attitude.

 

[young]

But then you wouldn't have brightened up our day by letting us see your post on here......bloody little tease! (LMSA...some of us "experts" (hahahah) look forward to seeing you here...great dreads!)...come play our silly reindeer games.....

I dont see how I could brighten anyone's day, with my negative attitude.

just being you, could brighten someones day.

 

[Boundless]

I get told all to often that i never think positive and its all my fault -_- and they wonder why i dont speak to them!

 

[Bexi]

I think your fabulous Gavin xx