CK23
Well-known member
Hey there...
I've been posting for ages on this site and today i feel so dead that i want to just get it all out... Damn, first of all i just gotta say i dont understand a bit about people... What the hell do people want? When i am nice to them they brush me aside... 'he's so boring'... when i am a badass they say 'hey, that guy is so fucked up, what's his deal?... So at the end of the day, no matter if you open up, or stay quiet or whatever you're just beating the crap out of yourself... feeling scared time and again... and thinking gosh, i said something to that person, aaw now whats gonna happen to me.... what will he or she think of me... will i be dumped again... Then there's this fucked up issue with grownups who think they know all the rules...They'd kick you in the ass whether you're good or bad... they'll say 'what a jackass, couldnt land the grade, idiotic lame brain, always wasting his time in music and t.v shows and useless crap'... when you work your ass off still the same old shit from these know it all grown ups... Who the hell do you confide in? huh... Do you confide in someone you asked ten times to come with you to a restaurant and they refused... do you confide in you dad, your uncle, your mom, your wife who only focus on what they want from you rather than what you want... Do you confide in a friend you gave everything for... begging and begging them to be your friend and they pushed you aside... In the work place what the fuck do you do when you're alone and cant focus on boring stuff like going through all the documents and stuff you've done already... would that give you a pay raise... would that make your boss look at you lovingly... the hell it would i say! it wouldnt be worth a dime for them.. it wouldnt matter to them whether you aced your papers or you failed... they wouldnt be the first to say hi when they know you have trouble speaking to people and you're trying,...you're a good guy, you care for them, you're there for them... I JUST cant take this shit anymore... i dont know what the hell to do... guess i should just curl up with boring videos and stuff to pass the time then go back home with nothing to look forward to... see the same ole people with expectations from me... Wish that my bastard cousins werent so dick headed and would have the courtesy to call once in a while... wish my wife wasnt so dumb as not to speak even a complete sentence to me when we talk on the phone... wish my co-workers werent so bull headed to not even give me a proper response when i write a dozen messages to them... i dont want to study, i dont want to work, i dont want to please these people... i am sick and tired of all this... i cant die either cos i'm a coward and a big fat chicken... i feel like i'm frozen in an ice berg in the arctic ocean!!!! :roll: ... Adios!
I've been posting for ages on this site and today i feel so dead that i want to just get it all out... Damn, first of all i just gotta say i dont understand a bit about people... What the hell do people want? When i am nice to them they brush me aside... 'he's so boring'... when i am a badass they say 'hey, that guy is so fucked up, what's his deal?... So at the end of the day, no matter if you open up, or stay quiet or whatever you're just beating the crap out of yourself... feeling scared time and again... and thinking gosh, i said something to that person, aaw now whats gonna happen to me.... what will he or she think of me... will i be dumped again... Then there's this fucked up issue with grownups who think they know all the rules...They'd kick you in the ass whether you're good or bad... they'll say 'what a jackass, couldnt land the grade, idiotic lame brain, always wasting his time in music and t.v shows and useless crap'... when you work your ass off still the same old shit from these know it all grown ups... Who the hell do you confide in? huh... Do you confide in someone you asked ten times to come with you to a restaurant and they refused... do you confide in you dad, your uncle, your mom, your wife who only focus on what they want from you rather than what you want... Do you confide in a friend you gave everything for... begging and begging them to be your friend and they pushed you aside... In the work place what the fuck do you do when you're alone and cant focus on boring stuff like going through all the documents and stuff you've done already... would that give you a pay raise... would that make your boss look at you lovingly... the hell it would i say! it wouldnt be worth a dime for them.. it wouldnt matter to them whether you aced your papers or you failed... they wouldnt be the first to say hi when they know you have trouble speaking to people and you're trying,...you're a good guy, you care for them, you're there for them... I JUST cant take this shit anymore... i dont know what the hell to do... guess i should just curl up with boring videos and stuff to pass the time then go back home with nothing to look forward to... see the same ole people with expectations from me... Wish that my bastard cousins werent so dick headed and would have the courtesy to call once in a while... wish my wife wasnt so dumb as not to speak even a complete sentence to me when we talk on the phone... wish my co-workers werent so bull headed to not even give me a proper response when i write a dozen messages to them... i dont want to study, i dont want to work, i dont want to please these people... i am sick and tired of all this... i cant die either cos i'm a coward and a big fat chicken... i feel like i'm frozen in an ice berg in the arctic ocean!!!! :roll: ... Adios!