Why?

[Wednesday]

I am just not sure why I keep trying? I lost a friend to suicide and I am just wishing that it was me? Is that sick or what? Then the friend I thought I had was and is a freaking joke..When I need her the most she's too freaking caught up to understand how much in shock I am? Why keep trying? I wish I was gone!!! I just don't think it's worth fighting anymore. Sorry for the vent,
Wednesday

 

[sidney]

think about how hurt you & others that loved them were when they did that, you dont want people thinking badly about you do you?
its not the answer, besides whatever lies ahead could certainly be ten times worse than this
when you suffer from things like we do its not weird to have these thoughts, just dont let them get too far, keep in high spirits
maybe you should find someone else to talk to & vent your feelings to who will really listen, it can make you feel so much better