I think we confuse pleasure with happiness. Most people know thats wrong, that its hedonism. But there are some things that are not shallow, but still qualify as pleasure seeking. Like friendship, family, a comfortable life, life hearted laughter. I think its a modern "mistaken belief" as the shrinks call it, that everyone is supposed to have that. And if you dont have that, then something's wrong with you, because everyone else is born with it, its natural. thats not true and i think that expectation is driving us crazy. life can be meaningful and fully human without any of those things even if there arent any rainbows or daisys or even if something ambiguous seems horribly wrong. dont listen to me. just rambling. dont take any of it serious.