Hey man I followed your meaning.Hate may have been a heavy word to use for it,but youre just saying that in general,we allow people to step all over us because of fears of rejection or confrontation.If we allow that to go on to long,well become a doormat.So its good to remind yourself to have an opinion,whether it is controversial or not.
Problem for me is,when I talk to so few people and so rarely,that I dont want the majority of my conversations to come out as touchy.So if I only engage in 5 real conversations a week,id like for them to be civilized because they are few and far between.
If we had a couple hundred a week like the majority does,we could afford to vent on a few of them.We simply dont have that luxury.We try to leave what little we have intact.Besides its my nature to find a way out of a conversation and fast.So objecting to it usually makes it drag on.Then I feel guilty for weeks,and that more social person was over it when they walked away.
Its like trying to cut out eating fish,when you live on a tiny island.Its just not that easy.
Later
Problem for me is,when I talk to so few people and so rarely,that I dont want the majority of my conversations to come out as touchy.So if I only engage in 5 real conversations a week,id like for them to be civilized because they are few and far between.
If we had a couple hundred a week like the majority does,we could afford to vent on a few of them.We simply dont have that luxury.We try to leave what little we have intact.Besides its my nature to find a way out of a conversation and fast.So objecting to it usually makes it drag on.Then I feel guilty for weeks,and that more social person was over it when they walked away.
Its like trying to cut out eating fish,when you live on a tiny island.Its just not that easy.
Later