Whats wrong with me...

[LostNAlone]

over the past few months it seems that im going down the wrong path... nothing i do is good enough anymore. My social life has been dead since high school and even then it wasnt really "there." Its come to the point now that i dont even want to leave the house anymore. It feels like im being judged by everyone around me. I have cried more this past few months then a new born baby...i just want to crawl under the bed and wait to see how long it takes for sum one to realize i was gone. i use to be such an outgoing person, dont know wat happened to me... i just need some one to tell me ill b alright and believe that i will be but i have no one...no one that cares anyways. family all thinks im just looking for attention and my gf just thinks im trying to get out of work and chores. my life is full of stress and i have no one to talk to. I have tried to make freinds but i cant seem to acually go up and start talking so i gave that up a long time ago...i just want my life back...please.

 

[gummybear22]

you could try writing a letter to your girlfriend expressing everything of how you really feel, and maybe she'll listen more if it's in that form. and if that works, then try the same with your family. if the letter doesn't work, maybe a video.
i don't have any friends besides a few acquaintances in my classes at school, no one to hang out with. i don't go up to people and start talking, I just chime in when I think it's appropriate, if I feel like it. I've never been outgoing, but I'm alright with just staying at home, watching tv and other stuff. i lOve watching tv ^_^
have you felt any better since reading what others on this site say about stuff, that you're not in the boat alone?

 

[LostNAlone]

I have been reading post for the last week and finally decided to make an account and it does make me feel a lil better to know that other ppl have problems like mine and im not the only one. ill try to write a letter just have to find the right words to use. thank you for the advice

 

[gummybear22]

you're welcome hope they turn their ears on and that stuff turns out well

 

[LostNAlone]

can only hope for the best but sum times even hoping seems hard to do

 

[gummybear22]

praying helps me go forward and feel better

 

[LostNAlone]

i dont think i have ever prayed i dont even know how but ill try it

 

[gummybear22]

know that stuff isn't always gonna turn out how you want, but turns out for the best even if you can't clearly see what the best is. so, your prayers can be answered in ways other than how you want, in better ways, even if whatever happens doesn't seem good at first.
and good stuff comes out of the junk that happens

 

[LostNAlone]

you sure do know how to word things just right and i hope your right about the good stuff coming out of junk

 

[gummybear22]

thanks and it does, even if you don't know about it, and good coming from junk isn't always immediate. for example, a guy on a trip that some people at my school went on said about a wreck that he and his family were in several years ago. he got sUper hurt, his two brothers were killed, and I don't remember what happened to his parents, but they weren't killed or super hurt. (and they were rearended by a giant truck, and it was the trucker's fault). he told us that people have gotten saved (became Christians) after hearing his story, but I don't know any details about that. so ALOT of horrid mess, but really good was brought out of it. the guy is fine now, though he had a loooooong time healing (so couldn't share his story until after a long time passed from the wreck), and his parents are ok also, and I believe his brothers went to heaven, so their death isn't all bad.
just have to have faith in what happens is gonna be good in some way, and it always is whether you realize it or not.

 

[LostNAlone]

that is a touching story i just started writing that letter to my gf ill leave it on her desk before i go to sleep tonight hope it works out the way i hope it will

 

[gummybear22]

me too
if she's still acts like a wad after that, you should prolly try finding someone that cares rather than shrugs you off her shoulder.

 

[LostNAlone]

seems like it would just be way to hard to call it off and find sum one else so i hope she does take me seriously

 

[gummybear22]

you should ask yourself why you want to stay with her, and ask her why she wants to stay with you, then go from there.
(ask her after she's had time to read the letter and respond to you, and after you talk to her about its contents)

 

[LostNAlone]

thats going to take alot of guts to do might take awhile for me to get to that point

 

[gummybear22]

time is good, lets you get stuff more straight in your head, and hopefully helps your gf get on track.
how's your letter coming?

 

[dean01]

hi,
you could try praying but i would see a doctor and a therapist. a doctor can prescribe meds that may help to take the edge of things and a therapist could help you through your problems. by seeing a doctor maybe your gf might see tthings differently.
hope things get better for you

 

[LostNAlone]

it gets harder and harder to write...but about to have to go pick the gf up from work. hope i can finish before i have to go

 

[LostNAlone]

hi,
you could try praying but i would see a doctor and a therapist. a doctor can prescribe meds that may help to take the edge of things and a therapist could help you through your problems. by seeing a doctor maybe your gf might see tthings differently.
hope things get better for you

I have thought about seeing a doc but it all just doesnt sit right with me. Also i dont have the money for one

 

[gummybear22]

you should only use meds if it gets alot worse. I think you can handle the situation without them. a therapist could help, but I'd try the letters and talking to them and a video if you think that might help, before going to a therapist-use it as a backup.