What should i do?

[Danfalc]

I had to go court a couple of weeks ago,thankfully because it was my first real offence and the judge could appreciate it was out of character plus under extreme circumstances so i didnt go down.

Ive got to go back to court next month and probation on Thursday... The judge was thinking of community service but because of my problems it really might not be suitable.As if i say have a panick attack and dont go one day i can be sent down.So there considering a curfew for me.. which means ill be electronicaly tagged for 6 months to a year.the thing is... i dont really go out at the moment at all because i find it too hard... but am i going to isolate myself more by not even having the chance to go out on tag.

Im thinking i should bite the bullet and just go for community service and try and get some good out of this whole mess by maybe doing unpaid work in a charity shop to get a little confidence.But i really am that bad at the moment i cant even be around the few fammily or friends i have.. my depression is so severe im literaly not eating or getting up... so im worried if its actualy realistic to think i can do it.I really dont know if this is maybe the push i need or if im setting myself up to fail.?

 

[Psychedelicious]

You should do the community service, there is no need to isolate yourself further. Don't set your self up to fail, you have to believe you can actually do it. Getting tagged will not make anything better, if anything it'd just make them worse, doing the community service might actually help you a little bit, so come on I'm sure you'll be able to do it . By the way, what was it that you were going to court for anyway?

 

[Danfalc]

I was going to see if i could try the community service.... but if i found it too much for my nerves swap over to tag (because honestly im not trying to get out of anything i have problems leaving my flat let alone working in a shop and being around people)... you know like a trial run.

But yeah i think your right and i should grit my teeth and go for it completley 100%,because of the seriousness of the offence im going to have to do maybe 300 hours... but its still only once a week i think so even if it is really hard on my anxiety i know ive only got to get through a day... then ill have a week break.Maybe this is the push ive needed.

Anyway thanks for the reply its appreciated .And erm... i went to a friends funeral but afterwards got far too drunk because i dont drink often and it hits me easy,and i basicaly ended up assaulting a security guard.. i was completley out of it... shouldnt of got that drunk if i couldnt handle it and acted like a right yob.

 

[Danfalc]

Update

I had my probation appointmnt today... which is where you basicaly have a pre-court report done to take into consideration your problems when sentanced.Ive totaly gone for communtiy service... and said no way to tag.I really think this could help me

The guy was totaly understanding and had delt with agraphobics and people with anxiety before so appreciated that certain things like say putting me in a huge group project or in a shop at first might make me worse.But yeah he's thinking of getting me some one on one tutoring... help with my english and maths at first (because i left school with no exams).

He actualy took more time to get to know about my problems than my doctor bothers too,and seems very keen to try and get me into counceling and a proper support worker,care plan ect ect ive been banging my head against the wall for over 4 years trying to get help,its a shame i had to go out and get arrested before the sytem bothered to take notice of me but i think things are looking up.

 

[Psychedelicious]

I'm really glad you went for the community service, Way to go!! It's good he was understanding, and good luck!

 

[Danfalc]

Awr Ta,and thanks for replying in the first place.Its been a long time since ive felt posative about somthing ill update when i know more.

 

[miss_amy]

Hope it goes well for you. Be nice if something positive came out of it. Might be a blessing in disguise and a new start for you. Good luck.