genetics (NLD) combined with having parents who pushed me into doing things from a very young age on that added to the stress; such as dance recitals, beauty pageants, dept. store fashion shows and eventually, even *public speaking competitions* 
- i kid you not. i'd have rather faced a firing squad.
btw, my folks were and are very caring people...they just didn't have a clue - in addition, i guess one would say i was precocious. therefore, not only did i hide my SA extremely well (i vividly remember having my first panic attack at the age of *3*), i also actually *liked* practicing for these things.
and, despite the severe panic attacks during each and every performance, i usually did well and was very happy afterwards - which just caused my parents to sign me up for MORE hell. ::
- i kid you not. i'd have rather faced a firing squad.btw, my folks were and are very caring people...they just didn't have a clue - in addition, i guess one would say i was precocious. therefore, not only did i hide my SA extremely well (i vividly remember having my first panic attack at the age of *3*), i also actually *liked* practicing for these things.
and, despite the severe panic attacks during each and every performance, i usually did well and was very happy afterwards - which just caused my parents to sign me up for MORE hell. :
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