its just a normal everyday thing, it pisses me off to think i needs praise just to go pub with my best mates, but thats what my lfe has become. So shit that even a trip to my local warrents me giving myself a pat on the back Embarassed Mad
hey sweetie, i know you've calmed down since, but i have to add my thoughts, and my heart goes out to you!
i get so sad sometimes reading the falls of people that i feel like i've come to know on this board, and their posts become filled with self-defeat and self-hate and they feel like dirt really. i wish everyone could browse this board like i do and see that all of you on the surface sound and seem like normal people that are just going through a hard time. you
are a normal person - just with things holding you back. like this retched disorder.
it may seem trivial to have something like SA keeping you at home, afraid even to go out, but just remember that the fear lies deeper than that. it's tied to your very
dignity - something everyone needs to get on in their lives. as well as
pride which isn't all bad, something else we need at least a little bit of. and with this fear, we fear loosing it, like it will be stripped of us.
ugh, this has turned long-winded, but what i'm trying to say is i don't see a handicapped person when i read your posts, and you're not handicapped just because you find it hard to go out with your friends - anyone would act the way we do if they viewed the world through our eyes.
anyway, glad to know you're feeling at least a little bit better. keep trying, accept yourself and that you have your limits and do praise yourself for your victories, no matter how small they may seem.
:x
