Shyguy4
Active member
One thing I always have thoughts about is what i'm going to tell everbody what I was going through. There was this one time where I had a breakthrough and I started to talk to a stranger which was a big step because I was going through some anxiety but after I started talking it felt like the biggest relief I ever felt in my life in a LONG! time and everything came rushing back to me on how to socialize I thought i was cured.. it was wierd but great! and one thing ruined it .........
After I started talking the person I was talking to noticed I wasn't talking earlier when I used to be around him with my brother which was one time at a mall and I was highly anxious.... So i'm talking to this guy I don't even know and inside I feel relieved and happy because I feel like I overcame my social anxiety and then boom! he makes a comment that sends me back to my shell for another couple months(this took place about two months ago and haven't had a breakthrouh like this yet)
The thing he said was " Why Dont you talk?"
it hit me so hard that I don't think I even answered the question. seriously!!. I felt so embarrased that when he asked me that question I acted like I didn't hear what he said and not even seconds after that i went in to anxiety mode and I was quiet for most of the day.
I hope one day I can overcome my anxiety like this day that took place ...sometimes I just wish he would kept that question to himself I probably would have been cured because it was almost like I became me again like that whole caring about what people think about me no longer existed and talking to people was not a big deal and it seemed true (it was like a vibe that I felt not really a knowledge.) but for some reason even though I know what it feels like to see things in a new light the anxiety still presents itself in social situations.
I know now that someday I will have a breakthough again its just a matter of time but when I do i'm not ready to have people interrogate me on why I was this way I hate it when they ask me why I am so quiet or why I didn't talk its almost embarrasing because when I had my breakthrough I realized how easy talking was (It really was!) but I know they won't understand that my anxiety made it harder..even right now I don't even talk to my close friends or my sisters even knowing what I know now!(CRAZY HOW ANXIETY CAN BE)
It would be cool if you guys could give me some advice on what I can say to people who ask me Why I dont talk, or why I used to be so quiet without having to tell them about anxiety because most people can't comprehend that unless they themselves have social anxiety which then I doubt they would be asking me anything hahaha
After I started talking the person I was talking to noticed I wasn't talking earlier when I used to be around him with my brother which was one time at a mall and I was highly anxious.... So i'm talking to this guy I don't even know and inside I feel relieved and happy because I feel like I overcame my social anxiety and then boom! he makes a comment that sends me back to my shell for another couple months(this took place about two months ago and haven't had a breakthrouh like this yet)
The thing he said was " Why Dont you talk?"
it hit me so hard that I don't think I even answered the question. seriously!!. I felt so embarrased that when he asked me that question I acted like I didn't hear what he said and not even seconds after that i went in to anxiety mode and I was quiet for most of the day.
I hope one day I can overcome my anxiety like this day that took place ...sometimes I just wish he would kept that question to himself I probably would have been cured because it was almost like I became me again like that whole caring about what people think about me no longer existed and talking to people was not a big deal and it seemed true (it was like a vibe that I felt not really a knowledge.) but for some reason even though I know what it feels like to see things in a new light the anxiety still presents itself in social situations.
I know now that someday I will have a breakthough again its just a matter of time but when I do i'm not ready to have people interrogate me on why I was this way I hate it when they ask me why I am so quiet or why I didn't talk its almost embarrasing because when I had my breakthrough I realized how easy talking was (It really was!) but I know they won't understand that my anxiety made it harder..even right now I don't even talk to my close friends or my sisters even knowing what I know now!(CRAZY HOW ANXIETY CAN BE)
It would be cool if you guys could give me some advice on what I can say to people who ask me Why I dont talk, or why I used to be so quiet without having to tell them about anxiety because most people can't comprehend that unless they themselves have social anxiety which then I doubt they would be asking me anything hahaha
