206Raider
Well-known member
I just registered, but basically my life is garbage, I was never picked on and was around "cool people" all my life in school though I never understood how, everybody always says "why are you so quiet".
I'm 20 and I never get out the house, I get so anxious of anything happening that I stay in the damn pidgeon coup but it drives me crazy, I never hung out after school really jsut went straight home, now I feel my childhood is gone and I didn't accomplish anything. Only been out with 1 girl and never did anything with her, I think I look ugly some girls say im cute but too quiet or nice. nobody every really called me ugly but ...man this shit is hard. I'm on Cymbalta about a year. it not doing nothing, I have ocd to a lil extent nothin too crazy just unwanted thoughts that haunted me but I figured that out. anyways I just feel hopeless I haven't been diagnosed with social phobia or whatever but I been feeling this emptiness for 8 years and I'm too alone but yet when I'm in a crowd I get real nervous and can't think of anything to say no matter how hard I try.
I did that blushing shit too so I think people take advantage, it's not funny on the inside where I'm cryin. so I pen up all this anger in silence I dunno what I would do if I let it out. My friend from back in the school days (my only real friend) came in town from chicago and he parties and wants me to go everyone and it's freakin me out.
I went to a party with him alst night and said wahts up to the few people I knew and sat in the corner like a loser the whole night. what can we do to get better?
I'm 20 and I never get out the house, I get so anxious of anything happening that I stay in the damn pidgeon coup but it drives me crazy, I never hung out after school really jsut went straight home, now I feel my childhood is gone and I didn't accomplish anything. Only been out with 1 girl and never did anything with her, I think I look ugly some girls say im cute but too quiet or nice. nobody every really called me ugly but ...man this shit is hard. I'm on Cymbalta about a year. it not doing nothing, I have ocd to a lil extent nothin too crazy just unwanted thoughts that haunted me but I figured that out. anyways I just feel hopeless I haven't been diagnosed with social phobia or whatever but I been feeling this emptiness for 8 years and I'm too alone but yet when I'm in a crowd I get real nervous and can't think of anything to say no matter how hard I try.
I did that blushing shit too so I think people take advantage, it's not funny on the inside where I'm cryin. so I pen up all this anger in silence I dunno what I would do if I let it out. My friend from back in the school days (my only real friend) came in town from chicago and he parties and wants me to go everyone and it's freakin me out.
I went to a party with him alst night and said wahts up to the few people I knew and sat in the corner like a loser the whole night. what can we do to get better?