Skatergirl
Banned
Hey everyone,
how ya'll?
I'm frustrated.. I'm sitting in my garden, and i'm thinking about my goals.
I want to have a job, i want to sing in a band, i want to go to school, want to make fun with friends, want to start with my driving theory, want to go to a sport or sumthing, i want to have many plans each day.. But all my days are UNEVENTFULL. NOTHING TO DO! because i AVOID everything!
I am so afraid of going to do it, but the bad thing is, it totally destroys my joy in life. i can't smile because it makes me frustrated, i want to go out of this place.. Not being in my garden or house anymore..
Tomorrow i have school, i just started school a week ago, that is a begin, but it takes so much to do it, it's so hard for me.
But i have so many goals left. Why can't i just do them?
If i would start having a job, i would get sick, of all the new people i have to meet, and i'm afraid of doing the work wrong.
And i would be so anxious when i would go to a sport, because i dont know anyone who can go with me! I'm just so sick of myself.
I'm so bad at making friends, I do have friends, but they already have a sport. One of them asked me to go with the sport, but then i said no.. And now i can't go anymore because she's further then me, so i will get in another team. :/
I know i sound really as a pessimist, sometimes i'm so frustrated that i'm having a depression, but mostly i see things realy positive.. But now.. it sucks as hell.
And i feel like everybody would be laughing when they would hear my problem. I feel like the whole world would laugh at me, I'm so lost.. I'm paranoid. =(
8 June i will have breathing excersises, I hope that will make me feel comfortable more.. To calm myself down in situations.. My mom had social phobia too and that's how she recovered.
Btw, i was talking with my grandpa, and he said, sas.. Just go for it.. JUST GO FOR IT.. but it's hard
I wrote down all my goals, i want to have succes in my life, many plans.. But is that possible? With social phobia? =(
What can i do, can someone please help me? :'(
And does somebody has the same feeling like me???
xxx Skatergirl
how ya'll?
I'm frustrated.. I'm sitting in my garden, and i'm thinking about my goals.
I want to have a job, i want to sing in a band, i want to go to school, want to make fun with friends, want to start with my driving theory, want to go to a sport or sumthing, i want to have many plans each day.. But all my days are UNEVENTFULL. NOTHING TO DO! because i AVOID everything!
I am so afraid of going to do it, but the bad thing is, it totally destroys my joy in life. i can't smile because it makes me frustrated, i want to go out of this place.. Not being in my garden or house anymore..
Tomorrow i have school, i just started school a week ago, that is a begin, but it takes so much to do it, it's so hard for me.
But i have so many goals left. Why can't i just do them?
If i would start having a job, i would get sick, of all the new people i have to meet, and i'm afraid of doing the work wrong.
And i would be so anxious when i would go to a sport, because i dont know anyone who can go with me! I'm just so sick of myself.
I'm so bad at making friends, I do have friends, but they already have a sport. One of them asked me to go with the sport, but then i said no.. And now i can't go anymore because she's further then me, so i will get in another team. :/
I know i sound really as a pessimist, sometimes i'm so frustrated that i'm having a depression, but mostly i see things realy positive.. But now.. it sucks as hell.
And i feel like everybody would be laughing when they would hear my problem. I feel like the whole world would laugh at me, I'm so lost.. I'm paranoid. =(
8 June i will have breathing excersises, I hope that will make me feel comfortable more.. To calm myself down in situations.. My mom had social phobia too and that's how she recovered.
Btw, i was talking with my grandpa, and he said, sas.. Just go for it.. JUST GO FOR IT.. but it's hard
I wrote down all my goals, i want to have succes in my life, many plans.. But is that possible? With social phobia? =(
What can i do, can someone please help me? :'(
And does somebody has the same feeling like me???
xxx Skatergirl
