hollaholla
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I assume I have SAD but it's really strange. I'll tell you how I feel. I'm 18 1/2 and a guy. This all started in my early 16s. I have had and still do have very stressful live events. At first when I started getting this weird things in my head, I thought that everybody is looking at me when I do something (especially) such as eating in front of others etc., judging me, and I started having safety behaivors and some avoidances. I also become very shy in front of pretty girls around 15 and still am but the shyness got better but I haven't had a girlfriend or got laid and I have very few friends, not that I'm afraid to make any, it's impossible to have friends where I live because people just stay with their race/nationality. About several months ago I realized that everything I feel is irrational and started confronting everything I felt not scared but I can say very uncomfortable doing (never had any fears) and I feel a better now and got no more avoidances or safety behavoirs but still have this tendency that I think everyone looks at me. I do talk to people all the time, maybe if there's a group of people I just met or a new persion I may be a little nervous such as I feel like I'm gonna blush just a bit but that passes in less then a minute and I become a talking machine since I almost always get comfortable with people. Almost everyone I meet likes me and I am an attractive guy. I go to night clubs by myself, feel kinda nervous when I do but nothing really, am not scared to speak publicly, actually like too. Got a job and everyone knows me. Worst problem is I'm too shy to talk to hot girls and they look at me and want me to come over and I just fuck it all up. I even got nervous (sweat a bit, heart pounds a bit, muscle get a bit tense) when I pass by a group of hot girls. Sux dick! Is this some form of SAP or really weird stuff caz I really don't care what others think of me, and I can say I'm social, but I read quite a bit about SAD and a lot of my symptoms match.