nikki_marie
Active member
We are all mad one way or another. whether it be the social phobic, the manic depressive or the guy who likes to jerk off over porn twice a day but still 'functions' in society.
Everyone has there thing, the one thing that when applified...makes them mad. and this is what i believe mental 'illness' to be, an over indulgence of a particular trait in our self, that we know is a bit of?...we obsess about it till it becomes us.
Mine is that i over analyse things, and this is my biggest gift and my worst curse.
when used positively i can see the dynamics in everthing, every detail i can see and know the bigger picture of a situation without anyone having to tell me and also foresee very well what is going to happen further down the road which is good for choices i make in life.
Used negatively i turn it inwards. i over anaylse everything i do or say or want to do until i dont see a point in doing any of it! there is no suprise. i might as well have a conversation with myself because its so predictable what might happen, but if i let go of that, the spontaneous-ness (to bigger word for me lol) of it all comes back and its excitable once again.i feel like i am alive rather than an thinking vessle.
I think maybe this is true of social phobia. a slight anxiety in talking with strangers is noticed, obsessed about until it is applied to everything and becomes you.
I just want to say that i believe we can be as mad as we want, if we still have the ability to love others and them to feel that then we will not be rejected for our madness. when it become isolating and making you reject others in order to save our own rejection, this is not love but fear.
I want to use an example here that has just cropped into my head.
has anyone ever noticed someone who is quite and doesnt say much who still appears social? has friends and is not at all effected by this quiteness? i have.
I have also see people who are quite but who are deeply effected by this.
the big difference between these people you will notice is that the 1st quite person embrasses people with their quiteness as they are comfortable with thereselfs, they are still able to make a person feel in company without saying a word.
the other rejects this quality in himself and puts up walls to not let people in, always questioning himself to why he is quite rather than enjoying the person who is loud.
anyways. i wanted to put my thoughts out there. maybe you can share your thoughts back
Everyone has there thing, the one thing that when applified...makes them mad. and this is what i believe mental 'illness' to be, an over indulgence of a particular trait in our self, that we know is a bit of?...we obsess about it till it becomes us.
Mine is that i over analyse things, and this is my biggest gift and my worst curse.
when used positively i can see the dynamics in everthing, every detail i can see and know the bigger picture of a situation without anyone having to tell me and also foresee very well what is going to happen further down the road which is good for choices i make in life.
Used negatively i turn it inwards. i over anaylse everything i do or say or want to do until i dont see a point in doing any of it! there is no suprise. i might as well have a conversation with myself because its so predictable what might happen, but if i let go of that, the spontaneous-ness (to bigger word for me lol) of it all comes back and its excitable once again.i feel like i am alive rather than an thinking vessle.
I think maybe this is true of social phobia. a slight anxiety in talking with strangers is noticed, obsessed about until it is applied to everything and becomes you.
I just want to say that i believe we can be as mad as we want, if we still have the ability to love others and them to feel that then we will not be rejected for our madness. when it become isolating and making you reject others in order to save our own rejection, this is not love but fear.
I want to use an example here that has just cropped into my head.
has anyone ever noticed someone who is quite and doesnt say much who still appears social? has friends and is not at all effected by this quiteness? i have.
I have also see people who are quite but who are deeply effected by this.
the big difference between these people you will notice is that the 1st quite person embrasses people with their quiteness as they are comfortable with thereselfs, they are still able to make a person feel in company without saying a word.
the other rejects this quality in himself and puts up walls to not let people in, always questioning himself to why he is quite rather than enjoying the person who is loud.
anyways. i wanted to put my thoughts out there. maybe you can share your thoughts back
