CheshireCat
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Does anyone get extrememly panicky when going out. I have social anxiety and it would make sense of why I get panicky but it's so hard especially with my b/f. He's brazilian and he's extremely close with his friends and family. He loves doing everything with a group. He knows about my situation but I don't think he completely understands it. Occassionally we go out to a party on a saturday night, most of the being his friends since I really don't have many (or feel comfortable hanging out on a regular basis). I always seem to have a breakdown right before we go out. I start to cry...I usually listen to music and practice some breathing exercises, but it's hard to control. Once I'm there I'll have a few beers, try and relax... I'm trying to understand his culture which seems the opposite of what I'm used to. It's so funny how I fell in love with someone almost the exact opposite of me, but he's such a caring person and what's me very involved in his life. I'm trying to open up more, but it's hard to show him my friends and family because of my social anxiety. He's great and supports me as much as he can...he just has a different idea about what a good time is. It's seems good in a way...maybe if I keep trying, and go back to therapy I can adjust better to what he likes to do. We do stay in alot during the week....
I kinda just dragged this on... I needed to vent...the first time I said this openly. But my main point is what kind of reactions do people get when going out? Does it take you forever to get out? Do you cry and feel as though you can't catch your breath? It hurts knowing I can't just feel happy about going somewhere that makes him happy, the same way he would be happy when I just want to watch a movie.
I kinda just dragged this on... I needed to vent...the first time I said this openly. But my main point is what kind of reactions do people get when going out? Does it take you forever to get out? Do you cry and feel as though you can't catch your breath? It hurts knowing I can't just feel happy about going somewhere that makes him happy, the same way he would be happy when I just want to watch a movie.