Venting Frustrations...

[Interzone]

Well, now am at a point where all the pent up loneliness is starting to rear its ugly head again. I've been feeling so frustrated, hopeless and helpless lately. I just don't really care anymore and one thing that I've been doing to get some kind of thrill in my life is driving really fast. I commute to college on the highway every morning and afternoon, I've been doing 80-90MPH almost constantly on the highway. If I don't go fast I feel bored and depressed. The high speed driving keeps me very well occupied. I am basically driving like a maniac because it makes me feel better for the little while that I do it.

I know there are a few likely outcomes to this behavior. One, I could get into an accident where either I or someone else ends up seriously injured, maybe even dead. Or, I get pulled over by a cop, get a ticket, insurance skyrockets and my parents go ballistic on me. It's not like I don't know the consequences, I do know them and I accept them as probable sooner or later. Thing is, I just don't really care. It's just I don't know how to vent, I don't drink, I don't smoke, I don't do drugs, I have no one to turn to. I just don't know what to do! In any case, do guys have any suggestions, if not, what do you do when your frustrated close to the breaking point? ::

 

[rachel592]

It's just I don't know how to vent, I don't drink, I don't smoke, I don't do drugs, I have no one to turn to. I just don't know what to do! In any case, do guys have any suggestions, if not, what do you do when your frustrated close to the breaking point? ::

I'm not really helpful on this subject because I've taken out my emotions in dangerous ways. Please do not do that though it really isn't worth it! I'm willing to talk if you're interested. Also, I know some people aren't really into therapy but just having someone to talk to, especially a therapist or social worker when you feel like you're at the breaking point can be really helpful.

 

[Hellhound]

You can talk with me if you want, if it helps... but don't risk yourself like that

 

[lithium]

I drive like a psycho on the highway as well. It's fun blasting the music and just zoning out. I've actually almost crashed on several occasions. I'm more cautious now; my parents would kill me if I crashed. I would suggest running or working-out. I like to do both and it really helps clear my mind. I have severe depression, so I know how you feel man.

 

[Qbmaster]

Some people enjoy doing dangerous things and putting their own lives at risk. I can understand this, but risking other people's lives to make yourself feel better is not acceptable. If you want some "thrill" in your life, do something that is not dangerous to others. Try mountain climbing, bungee jumping, full contact martial arts or something.

 

[0dd1]

I wish I can drive like mad! but I don't have a car...

I don't drink, smoke, or do drugs...

So when ever I want to vent, I usually tear up my drawings or throw things.

 

[Interzone]

Yes, I know, I know, but I feel as if its really one of the only things I can do to vent my hopeless frustrations. I can't go bungee jumping on a whim etc. I can't throw things or stuff in my house because, well, I mean, what would my parents think? It's like the only thing I can do that no one else will find out about unless something bad happens. I mean, 80-90MPH isn't that fast and I do try to be careful, but it's just I don't know what else to do!!!

I don't do it every day, just on the days where I feel like everything is just absolutely hopeless, like today. You know it's just, I don't know what to do anymore, there isn't much I can do. I have no one. And, I know clearly know and understand that I AM putting others at risk. I know that. I can't smoke, I won't do drugs, I won't do anything else by myself. ****. I'm off to bed, thanks for responding anyways. I appreciate it.

 

[ou2saved2]

People want to control life and say I did it, or I stopped it, but in reality we are in this world just as much as someone who is fortunate enough not to have the strangling hands around their throat most of the day, so they can say "why are you doing things this way?" well we dont have a damn choice. we are stuck in this world and we have to hear about you people who dont ever have to fight to stay alive and so what if we get dangerous once in a while, we still have a right to live with some relief!! we are all victims to this world and some more than others, cure us or let us be!!!

 

[ou2saved2]

O.K. let me explain it this way, Lets say the system knows that some individuals have problems due to their brains not getting the right chemicals and that IS what's happening in the S.A. brain, which they know this, and lets say we call this a key, this key exists and mostly the courts know about it (they know because they deal with it day in and day out) now you have a person like interzone who posted this thread and he doesn't know there is a key (and he doesn't) now he dangerously speeds and all he knows is it is saving him from overwhelming emotions that will manisfest itself in many ways, not just speeding, he is dealing with something he knows very little of but the one group that has the information that could help him and everyone else who could be hurt from him, won't give him the key! He is concerned enough to post this thread so he does care but he doesn't know what to do. Now we have a totally different situation. I have the key and for me it was a drug called elavil. I dont get dwi's anymore because my brain is getting the chemical it needs. but the only way the system will help him is if he breaks the law, they wont share the info or key unless he does. You see we can help people but as a group we rarely will. noone can go at it alone. I see a lot but unforetunately I can't do it alone either. We need a good group, we all do, not just mad groups. You can try to shoot holes through my theory but still there are real people getting hurt or will get hurt. I should not have had 5 d.w.i's to get my key. You should not have to find your key, we have it, but it can come with a price. Most people won't walk away from S.A. and not get hurt. I am here to say that you can get the key, it is possible for some to get out of this without hurting anyone! good drugs are not bad medicine, find it within you to break the cycle of ignorance. Go find your key!!