valentines anxiety

[w*n*c*a*m]

I am feeling confused since this event happened so if somebody please tell me what you think if you're in my situation....

Feb. 7

Our class haven't started yet so everybody was in their usual chatty atmosphere, while I am reading a book (just some novels). Then suddenly, our class president entered the room with a bouquet of white roses, announced to the class that this flower is from someone who cares to a particular person and so the class all cheered, wondering and betting to whom the roses would be! I was also amused with the commotion but I just returned to reading after a while.

And surprises of all surprises the roses were given to me. And the class all cheered!

Now what's the problem? I really felt stupid. first, I thought it was a big nasty joke for me! So i went really pale and then I felt pissed off all of a sudden because the class were all cheering or laughing? I don't know!!! I mean, I want to smile but then there's a BIG doubt in my head... that they are making fun of me? I mean, I know that there's no reason for them to be rude of me... but it seems that the "suspicious attitude" haven't faded from me.... and so I didn't smile and I'm now worried that my classmates might think that I am rude because they might have thought that I haven't appreciated it. But c'mon! i don't even know from whom was the flower... I mean i was totally clueless! I'm not an extrovert and my life in school was only in the classroom, books, and close friends! And the worst part is that I am in an exclusive girl school. Yeah we have a few guys (because it was only recently when our school admitted guys) but they're all in lower years and they are so few.... I mean it all felt uncomfortable for me. And how could somebody notice me??? It was all so impossible for me! I'm not ugly but c'mon our school was filled with gorgeous girls!!! So I'm actually suspicious up to now!

And so the following day went like I'm the talk of the campus and I don't really like it!!! And now it worries me that valentines day is coming soon. Because they are guessing that the person who gave it to me might reveal himself or herself on that day!

I sometimes think if maybe I should just be thankful that someone appreciated me(if there really is). Am I weird to feel this? But i can't pretend to be happy if I'm really anxious. Could people please give me their opinions? This thing drives me really crazy!!!

PS
the person who gave the roses to our class president also said that it was just given from her.... so we couldn't trace from whom it was....

 

[alter_ego]

It sounds to me as if they really like you (most people prefer shy, quiet people ) and that they put their heads together and thought it would be a nice gesture to brighten your day. I'm just guessing, of course (maybe you do have a secret admirer) but reading this as someone who doesn't know anyone involved that's how it came across to me.

 

[Lost_Guy]

I'd say give it a chance and see how it plays out. Life rarely lives up to our anxieties about it, or so I've heard!

 

[xSleepy]

Well when i read that you go to a mostly all girl school then i thought its most likely not a joke. i was thinking that if there were guys at your school then maybe one might be an ass and make a joke of it. thats just what i wouldve thought if that happend to me

but since its all girls, or mostly girls, then i think they're just being nice. they probably see that your kinda shy and so they wanna make you feel good about yourself and try to get you to open up and be comfortable with them.
but honestly, if i was you i would think they were all just playing a nasty trick on me. it sounds horrible but i would never expect to get anything on v-day from anybody.

 

[w*n*c*a*m]

but honestly, if i was you i would think they were all just playing a nasty trick on me. it sounds horrible but i would never expect to get anything on v-day from anybody.

yeah that's what I am thinking! but i just wish that they have just given it to me privately!!! it's like I became an instant celebrity and I don't even like being noticed by a lot of people! and what sucks most is that until now they keep on asking me if I have already know who was the giver. And honestly... I haven't bothered looking for whoever that person is! I just want them to stop bothering me and I just want everybody to forget all about it!

atleast I know now that my reaction was just normal... it can't be helped if I'm being suspicious, right?

 

[w*n*c*a*m]

LOL now I know who gave me those flowers. I've actually forgotten about it when all of a sudden after my graduation, I received a large bouquet of pink roses! The largest I have received in my whole life!...
well... it came from my bestfriend! And yes, she admitted in the letter that the white flower was also from her. She would have told it to me that it was from her (at valentines) but then she was surprised with our classmates reaction and she became infuriated by some of their nasty comments (that the flower was cheap, inexpensive, blah blah). She also said in the letter that it was given to me to express her gratitude for being a good friend. Now I was kind'a guilty at that part because actually I wouldn't have considered her as a bestfriend if she haven't told me so. I mean, I haven't even given her a birthday gift (or maybe once)
But I like her because she's really nice! But i just don't feel the same way ... but yeah I was thankful for those flowers! (And relieved because it was not a nasty joke) So now, I feel glad but also sad because I feel that I don't deserve her praise. Yeah I am nice to her but not in the way she describes me from the letter.
i really am a fake

PS she's not a lesbian by the way, she actually have a boyfriend. And she's truly a sweeeeet person. The sweeetest person I've ever met.

It's just funny that until now some of my classmates ask me about the flowers! Maybe some of them were those rude people who commented badly. Well... let the mystery kill them! Hahaha!

 

[lifes_to_long]

Thats such a nice story the nicest story I've ever heard in fact, I'm so pleased for you.you sound like a lucky guy going to an all girls school I wish I could join you.lol p.s I'm so glad it wasn't a joke, that would be so mean.oli