upndwns rants


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I've had a lot on my mind lately and I feel like venting out some frustrations, but I don't want to pollute any other threads with my negative thoughts, so I made this thread as a personal space to rant and complain. Feel free to comment and give advice, but be warned that this thread might get very negative.

Ok, so now that you have the basis of this thread I'll start my ranting.

I'm so f'ing tired of being alone, I mean for the last two years I have literally spent 85% of my time home, alone in front of the computer. Although I have plenty of friends, they are all usually busy with family, school and work. It seems like everybody has a social life outside of their gang of friends except me.

To make matters worse everyone drifts in and out of relationships like its the most common thing in the world, while I for some reason can't seem to really connect with anyone on an emotional level.
Every girl I've been with in my entire life has left me before anything got serious. Every single one.

Then it is the fact that everyone I know seems to be drifting away from me. Most of my friends are younger than me, but all of them have gotten farther in life than I could ever dream of. They have careers, steady relationships, cars, apartments and kids. I have none of these things, and while people say you shouldn't compare yourself to others, I find it really f'ing hard when everything around you reminds you of how pathetic your life really is.

Mentally I've been doing ok in comparison to how it used to be, but recently my SA has gotten way worse. Sitting inside at home, alone all the day isn't helping. I have lots of stuff to keep me busy, I have computer games, the internet, books, TV and housework I could do, but I don't feel like doing any of those things.

I try to keep a positive attitude, I really do, but there are so many things that reminds me of how messed up my life really is, and it really seems like there is no hope for me.

End rant