Princess Daisy
New member
Hello everyone!
I've been having a problem when it comes to my sexuality. It all started with a homosexual dream that I had. I can't really say what it was about because it was one of those "you can't see" type of dreams. I woke up the following morning and decided to research on why I was having dreams like this. Most of the information I came across said to ignore it. However, for some reason I decided to look into the topic just out of curiosity. I then saw an article which contained homosexual pictures that I wasn't expecting. Right away I had that tingly feeling "down there", but afterwards I immediately felt horrible and disgusted at myself to a point where I really regret doing that.
Ever since then, I've been panicking of whether or not I lost my attraction to men. This past week I was on the verge of having a mental breakdown because I thought I should be either committed or that I should see a therapist. I don't like women that way and I would never have sex with them either. Nor would I want to start a relationship with them. Its just not me. During my entire life I've always felt attracted to men both in real life and on TV. I've always daydreamed of what my husband would be like and stuff. I don't hate any homosexuals; its just that when it comes to my life I would rather be with a man. Anyway, I think somethings wrong because ever since that day it seems like I can't look at women anymore especially on TV. I sometimes even have thoughts saying that certain people are attractive and it feels like a small punch has been hitting my gut. I feel upset. This has been turning into an obsession; meaning that I've been researching about HOCD nonstop for months. What do you guys think? Honest opinions too please. Any help would be appreciated!
By the way I haven't been properly diagnosed with OCD, so I'm somewhat sure I have it. Out of nowhere I've been engaging with my daily "exercises" of rechecking things, and I've also been counting a lot too which is horrible. This has been going on for about 3+ years.
I've been having a problem when it comes to my sexuality. It all started with a homosexual dream that I had. I can't really say what it was about because it was one of those "you can't see" type of dreams. I woke up the following morning and decided to research on why I was having dreams like this. Most of the information I came across said to ignore it. However, for some reason I decided to look into the topic just out of curiosity. I then saw an article which contained homosexual pictures that I wasn't expecting. Right away I had that tingly feeling "down there", but afterwards I immediately felt horrible and disgusted at myself to a point where I really regret doing that.
Ever since then, I've been panicking of whether or not I lost my attraction to men. This past week I was on the verge of having a mental breakdown because I thought I should be either committed or that I should see a therapist. I don't like women that way and I would never have sex with them either. Nor would I want to start a relationship with them. Its just not me. During my entire life I've always felt attracted to men both in real life and on TV. I've always daydreamed of what my husband would be like and stuff. I don't hate any homosexuals; its just that when it comes to my life I would rather be with a man. Anyway, I think somethings wrong because ever since that day it seems like I can't look at women anymore especially on TV. I sometimes even have thoughts saying that certain people are attractive and it feels like a small punch has been hitting my gut. I feel upset. This has been turning into an obsession; meaning that I've been researching about HOCD nonstop for months. What do you guys think? Honest opinions too please. Any help would be appreciated!
By the way I haven't been properly diagnosed with OCD, so I'm somewhat sure I have it. Out of nowhere I've been engaging with my daily "exercises" of rechecking things, and I've also been counting a lot too which is horrible. This has been going on for about 3+ years.