Everytime I walk down a hallway at school if somebody is just standing somewhere looking down the hall when I walk by they turn there heads. And then I kinda look back and they started looking down the hall again. People who arent ugly dont know how good they have it. I wish I could just be average looking so I could fit in. I wouldnt have SA if it werent for being ugly. Friends and siblings would stop talking to me because of my looks.
I used to be okay with life but now being older I get lonely sometimes. Ive been working out for three years and have built muscle (although im only 5'6 another obstacle) and ive never been fat. I went from 125 to 148. And only dudes take notice.
I know some girls might not like an ugly face but what can I do? (Sometimes I question what im seeing in the mirror. To me I look fine. Im not deformed.) Is a great body and personality not good enough? I'd like a girlfriend because I just want a friend. Im not even looking for anything else. Im in HS and I dont have a license (plenty of others dont) and ive been grown into a religious family. I'd like a friend not sex. Another thing is that ive never had a conversation with a girl. Never.
Another thing I have had fall outs with people on forums and get scared they track my internet history. Is that possible?
Oh and if PMing is a thing here I could show some what I look like. As long as youre not in my location.
I used to be okay with life but now being older I get lonely sometimes. Ive been working out for three years and have built muscle (although im only 5'6 another obstacle) and ive never been fat. I went from 125 to 148. And only dudes take notice.
I know some girls might not like an ugly face but what can I do? (Sometimes I question what im seeing in the mirror. To me I look fine. Im not deformed.) Is a great body and personality not good enough? I'd like a girlfriend because I just want a friend. Im not even looking for anything else. Im in HS and I dont have a license (plenty of others dont) and ive been grown into a religious family. I'd like a friend not sex. Another thing is that ive never had a conversation with a girl. Never.
Another thing I have had fall outs with people on forums and get scared they track my internet history. Is that possible?
Oh and if PMing is a thing here I could show some what I look like. As long as youre not in my location.
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