marleysghost
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I have suffered from extremely low self esteem since childhood. I believe a huge part of this was growing up as an only child and that I blame myself for the circumstances involved. When I found out the details I was about 7 yrs old at a family reunion. I was pretty much told that I was very fortunate as I was lucky to be alive since i wasnt expected to survive. However I read negatively into this and felt less about myself. this continues to haunt me to this day as I have obsessed over these circumstances. It has strained every relationship that I have bee involved in as I don't like to be touched and feel extremely self conscious about me as a person. I feel more as a machine than a human being. Just felt the need to get this off my chest... Thanks for listening