Tempus35
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So, I thought I would post on here about how much I hate holidays. What sparked this is most likely obvious, Halloween.
Ok so here was my night, I wake up late in the day, as I do when I don't have to be up. I sit around till 6pm doing nothing at all. At 6 a friend comes over and tries to get me to go trick or treating with him later. Of course with my Social Anxiety I wont go, and at the time I assumed he was still going with some other person I knew, turned out they bailed. So we sit around again, with me still not in a great mood and getting tired till about midnight, when I am talked into going to a "Zombie March" downtown. It isn't like it isn't interesting, but when you have SA you can't enjoy something like that the same. But ya, so 3 of us go, all friends of some kind, all male. Two are drunk already, the other isn't. We get there and there is a huge crowd of people marching the street, so we join. I can hold off my SA for a while. Well after marching up and down the street, some 20 minutes later, my one friend wants to go, so do I. So we head back to campus, I am college by the way. I find out that when we get to campus my one friend wanted to go back because he has a girl he has been talking to of late waiting for him. Great now I am left with the two drunk ones. But wait I am not, they go get more drinks and then head back to town. So now I am alone, in my small cube of a room, staring at a computer. While everyone else is at parties, hanging out at least, or something. And of course I am deeply depressed.
This happens all the time on holidays etc. Everyone is off having fun of some kind, while I am sitting here staring at a wall. And I know what people think, "Just go out, have fun", But SA takes that out.
So I am sorry that was so long, but I needed to talk about it.
Ok so here was my night, I wake up late in the day, as I do when I don't have to be up. I sit around till 6pm doing nothing at all. At 6 a friend comes over and tries to get me to go trick or treating with him later. Of course with my Social Anxiety I wont go, and at the time I assumed he was still going with some other person I knew, turned out they bailed. So we sit around again, with me still not in a great mood and getting tired till about midnight, when I am talked into going to a "Zombie March" downtown. It isn't like it isn't interesting, but when you have SA you can't enjoy something like that the same. But ya, so 3 of us go, all friends of some kind, all male. Two are drunk already, the other isn't. We get there and there is a huge crowd of people marching the street, so we join. I can hold off my SA for a while. Well after marching up and down the street, some 20 minutes later, my one friend wants to go, so do I. So we head back to campus, I am college by the way. I find out that when we get to campus my one friend wanted to go back because he has a girl he has been talking to of late waiting for him. Great now I am left with the two drunk ones. But wait I am not, they go get more drinks and then head back to town. So now I am alone, in my small cube of a room, staring at a computer. While everyone else is at parties, hanging out at least, or something. And of course I am deeply depressed.
This happens all the time on holidays etc. Everyone is off having fun of some kind, while I am sitting here staring at a wall. And I know what people think, "Just go out, have fun", But SA takes that out.
So I am sorry that was so long, but I needed to talk about it.
