Falkor
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Hello
At the weekends I mostly don't have anything to do.
I can plan things, but sometimes I really feel like, avoiding it.
But although I do have friends, to invite them, ask them to go out.
But still my life depends on my SA, because I find it really hard to be around people and I blame myself on that. It's so hard my struggle with SA.
So this weekend, my dad will perform with his band, in a cafe.
And my mom says I should ask a friend to go with me,
but it makes me feel so in doubt, because i dont feel good about that.
people judging me, and so on. And being afraid or running away and not being able to go back to the place where my dad will perform... ::
So yeah. what should i do. should i ask a friend, or just go with my mom and her friends. I really would feel stupid without having a friend around me,
because i feel pretty un-popular to my mom's friends when they catch me up without someone having around. Sounds stupid, but im afraid of what they think of me. But i really dont know what to do. I hate my anxiety.
And I wont run away, but i think of it. but still im so nervous for this.. but i SURE want to see my dad perform... I really want to go.. so im already over the stage of going to the cafe.. but still im worried how i will do that.... dam.. i really wish i could control my sa.. and show people i can..
because i really want to be a strong woman without these things, because i want to be outgoing
thats my dream...
At the weekends I mostly don't have anything to do.
I can plan things, but sometimes I really feel like, avoiding it.
But although I do have friends, to invite them, ask them to go out.
But still my life depends on my SA, because I find it really hard to be around people and I blame myself on that. It's so hard my struggle with SA.
So this weekend, my dad will perform with his band, in a cafe.
And my mom says I should ask a friend to go with me,
but it makes me feel so in doubt, because i dont feel good about that.
people judging me, and so on. And being afraid or running away and not being able to go back to the place where my dad will perform... ::
So yeah. what should i do. should i ask a friend, or just go with my mom and her friends. I really would feel stupid without having a friend around me,
because i feel pretty un-popular to my mom's friends when they catch me up without someone having around. Sounds stupid, but im afraid of what they think of me. But i really dont know what to do. I hate my anxiety.
And I wont run away, but i think of it. but still im so nervous for this.. but i SURE want to see my dad perform... I really want to go.. so im already over the stage of going to the cafe.. but still im worried how i will do that.... dam.. i really wish i could control my sa.. and show people i can..
because i really want to be a strong woman without these things, because i want to be outgoing
thats my dream...
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