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[spacecadet]

I suffer from severe social phobia, mood disorder and psychotic episodes. After my second nervous break down they took me off my old drug stelazine because of the long term side effects (although it took away my anxiety and worked for me for years). They put me on olanzapine, amisuplride and then risperdal. All of these drugs didn't work completely as when i went into crowds I would get the feeling all the people were watching me and talking about me and looking at me this was intense and created great fear in me. I was paralysed with fear. Two years of trying these drugs and finally they have agreed to put me back on the stelazine which cures these feelings. It is anti anxiety as well as antipsychotic. I hope now I will be able to enjoy my social life and go back to work. I just thought I'd type this incase anyone had a similar problem. I am on stelazine for now and if better drugs come out in the future I might try them but for now stelazine gets me through. They are bringing out new drugs all the time.

 

[Frozen_In_Time]

Hi spacecadet (cool user name by the way!)

I'm sorry to hear what you are going through. How are things now? I'm sorry, I just checked when you posted your thread December 21. I just hope life treats you better, and good luck.

 

[spacecadet]

Hi Frozen

Hi Frozen in Time

Since then I have gone back to the temp agency and for the last week I have been working in two part time jobs. One in the morning and one in the afternoon. I have been fine. I handle the jobs OK. The morning job is going to test me out and if I cope they say they'll take me on permanent. The only thing is that the stelazine makes me kinda tired. But I still manage to get through and I get a great night's sleep. This Friday night I couldn't have gone out to pubs/clubs cos I was so tired and my eyes ached. I had noone to go out with anyway. I have a friend in Liverpool and we meet up sometimes at hers or mine and go out but other than that I have no local friends to socialise with and I spend weekends alone only see my parents. I'm 31 and I would really like to be in a relationship so I feel sorry for myself sometimes. At least I now have a job and am able to work. Hope you find something that works for you I'm sure you can do it.

 

[Frozen_In_Time]

I'm glad you found a job. Maybe you could try to make some friends where you work? Then you socialize more and you could go out with someone you know, and perhaps meet someone new ... It was just a thought ... Do you find it hard to get to know people? I'm actually quite the opposite, it is easier for me to talk to people I don't know, but it's hard to keep up the friendship because I don't know what to say after a while. If you need any advice, feel free to ask, I'm not sure if I will be able to help you (I will try), but I'm sure someone on this forum could offer you some advice. Keep up the good work.

 

[MarCPatt]

Good Job. Pat yourself on the back.

You seem to be doing so well. I would not recommend for you to date anyone from work though. If the relationship does not work out you may feel ackward after; this would be true even for a person without sp. Before giving you further advise, I just wanted to let you know that you do not have a person of the opposite sex in order to be happy. I am just saying this because I see so many woman who get involved with abusive man only to not be alone. Take your time in looking for the right person. You should probably join some kind of group or club. Join a church group, reading group, or any group that may help you find a kind person. I know that this is not easy, but like the saying goes, " it is better to be alone than in bad company." :twisted:

Take care of yourself and remember that someone is proud of you. :wink: