Hey guys, I'm new here. Just thought I'd get some stuff of my chest about the struggles I face that y'all can probaly relate to, in my life as a result of the bs we call 'anxiety'. I feel like I need to be playing my part aswell and not just scrolling through everyone elses input.
First of all I have no true friends. I go to a church youth group and Ive been trying to establish some friendships but here are the dilemmas: I see them there, I shake hands, say hey, How are you, good how are you, I'm good, what you been up to etc then awkward silence from then on. They might say something funny and I'll go haha and that's it. Then it'll be me creepily hanging around them as they laugh and talk to their buds about stuff I just couldn't care less about and therefore i dont contribute to the conversation. when I do feel like contributing, my heart will start pounding and all the anxiety kicks in, holding me back from speaking. Another thing is I just don't care for silly mucking around which these guys will often do.(maybe just not when in social situations)Again its me just observing creepily with an occasional fake smile. Anyway I never feel like I gain any ground when attempting to make friends and socialize coz I just can't relate. Anyone feel what I'm saying? I'm sure its fairly common among us folk. But I'm never gone give up fighting this and growing as a person!
First of all I have no true friends. I go to a church youth group and Ive been trying to establish some friendships but here are the dilemmas: I see them there, I shake hands, say hey, How are you, good how are you, I'm good, what you been up to etc then awkward silence from then on. They might say something funny and I'll go haha and that's it. Then it'll be me creepily hanging around them as they laugh and talk to their buds about stuff I just couldn't care less about and therefore i dont contribute to the conversation. when I do feel like contributing, my heart will start pounding and all the anxiety kicks in, holding me back from speaking. Another thing is I just don't care for silly mucking around which these guys will often do.(maybe just not when in social situations)Again its me just observing creepily with an occasional fake smile. Anyway I never feel like I gain any ground when attempting to make friends and socialize coz I just can't relate. Anyone feel what I'm saying? I'm sure its fairly common among us folk. But I'm never gone give up fighting this and growing as a person!