FaymeLevy
Well-known member
Hey ya'll. Been quite a long time since i've stopped by, but today I have been feeling rather down.
I just have an overwhemling feeling of being "stuck" in my life. I'm 23 years old, and have had SP for 10 years, the last 7 being housebound. I left junior high, but i got my ged. no work experience or even any IDEA about what I could possibly do with no experience and limited to no contact with people. i have no money or insurance to get treatment for my SP.
I live with my mother, and she's great (most of the time). She takes care of me with no complaint (just the occassional joke about it). But everytime I mention wanting to change, but needing help to do it, she just changes the subject or gives me a damn line like "It's up to you to change." Like I can just wake up in the morning and be alright.
The problem is, It just seems like it's alright with everyone in my family if i stay this way forever. My mom is still healthy and young (in early 40's) and they have already made plans for who will take me when she dies! I mean, its nice they want to take care of me, but why dont they want me to change?
*sigh* Sorry, had to ramble and nobody else will listen. Thanks ya'll.
I just have an overwhemling feeling of being "stuck" in my life. I'm 23 years old, and have had SP for 10 years, the last 7 being housebound. I left junior high, but i got my ged. no work experience or even any IDEA about what I could possibly do with no experience and limited to no contact with people. i have no money or insurance to get treatment for my SP.
I live with my mother, and she's great (most of the time). She takes care of me with no complaint (just the occassional joke about it). But everytime I mention wanting to change, but needing help to do it, she just changes the subject or gives me a damn line like "It's up to you to change." Like I can just wake up in the morning and be alright.
The problem is, It just seems like it's alright with everyone in my family if i stay this way forever. My mom is still healthy and young (in early 40's) and they have already made plans for who will take me when she dies! I mean, its nice they want to take care of me, but why dont they want me to change?
*sigh* Sorry, had to ramble and nobody else will listen. Thanks ya'll.