I come across as a very outgoing person . I am the kind of person people wait for in parties so that I can liven up the environment. The truth is I am extremely uncomfortable around people. I have realised that when I meet someone unexpectedly on the street I act over friendly so as to hide my awkwardness. Sometimes it is very evident , at other times it is not . My husband married me thinking that I am outgoing , I was a rude shock to him when I refused to go out , or even visit family and friends (Including my own family). I do not like people , I guess I owe that to the abusive childhood I have had .
I can be embarrassed very easily . I ponder over the embarrassment for a very long time . It is tiring really . The same goes for insults , anger etc. I used to be a very calm person as a child. As I started growing up I started loosing my mind. I think about the horrible things people have done or said to me and be angry for hours sometimes days . This is very painful and tiring . This has gotten worse since I am a housewife.
I think I have improved since I have started confronting myself and talking to myself. I considered therapy , but couldn't find anyone who could help me. I realised maybe I could help myself. It works sometimes , other times it doesn't . Any suggestions???
I can be embarrassed very easily . I ponder over the embarrassment for a very long time . It is tiring really . The same goes for insults , anger etc. I used to be a very calm person as a child. As I started growing up I started loosing my mind. I think about the horrible things people have done or said to me and be angry for hours sometimes days . This is very painful and tiring . This has gotten worse since I am a housewife.
I think I have improved since I have started confronting myself and talking to myself. I considered therapy , but couldn't find anyone who could help me. I realised maybe I could help myself. It works sometimes , other times it doesn't . Any suggestions???