blankmind
Member
i don't like explaining to people what my problem is,and usually i don't i prefer to hide it the best i can but it's hard.
my wife has other ideas,i suppose she thinks she's helping,but the looks on other people's faces tells the story!
'just get on with it,you should'nt think about things like that!,everyone gets nervous sometimes',thats and other remarks that people make,they think there giving sound advice.
i would like to just grab them and bring them into my world,and then they would see how useless there advise is,its not that we don't listen it's just that we already said all that crap to ourselves a million times,and it's never worked yet.
if they could feel how i feel,to scared to go out without checking the windows first to see who's out there,everyone looking,critisizing,making judgements,wether they do or not does'nt matter,thats what i think they do and thats all that matters.
let them waste their lives away,let them go and get help over and over again,let them feel the pain,sadness.
let them not know when it will ever end.
then they might not make useless comments and give useless advise that does nothing but wind me up,i know whats wrong!!
but knowing it does'nt cure it!
not at the moment anyway.
one day!!
my wife has other ideas,i suppose she thinks she's helping,but the looks on other people's faces tells the story!
'just get on with it,you should'nt think about things like that!,everyone gets nervous sometimes',thats and other remarks that people make,they think there giving sound advice.
i would like to just grab them and bring them into my world,and then they would see how useless there advise is,its not that we don't listen it's just that we already said all that crap to ourselves a million times,and it's never worked yet.
if they could feel how i feel,to scared to go out without checking the windows first to see who's out there,everyone looking,critisizing,making judgements,wether they do or not does'nt matter,thats what i think they do and thats all that matters.
let them waste their lives away,let them go and get help over and over again,let them feel the pain,sadness.
let them not know when it will ever end.
then they might not make useless comments and give useless advise that does nothing but wind me up,i know whats wrong!!
but knowing it does'nt cure it!
not at the moment anyway.
one day!!